I think that is the line...or its "At last, my love has come home..."
Well, either way...im so happy that my Amazon purchase of the Mraz CD/DVD - Tonite not again, finally arrived at the Reception desk of my building!!!
Its been 12 days in waiting...but well worth it! I mean i only paid $18.00 (AUS) to have it shipped from the US to me, instead of buying it at HMV for $44.00 (i'm told). Less than half the price...ahhh...
*smiles all around*
On another note, He is so cute...i love it when he misses me! Can I please say it out loud? I think he will ask that i only say it out loud to him though...hahahaha...
I'm going to watch L'Orfeo by Claudio Monteverdi on Friday nite with him...and im fretting over what to wear...im semi-settled on wearing my black strapless 3/4 dress...but im not too sure...I can hear Riss saying "Just wear it!"...hehehe...
Last nite, there was a big spider in the bathroom...it crawled into the cupboard under the sink...i opened the door to see if it was visible amongst the shampoo and conditioners, etc...and it was still on the door, so when i opened it and saw it - i let out the most girliest "yelp" ever...had it been a sharp scream or a shout...or something other than my yelp...i wouldnt be so embarassed! My lil brother came to my rescue and killed it for me! But he also pissed himself laughing at how girly ive become...
I'm astonished at how scared i am now, of spiders...I use to not mind killing them, but now, when i see one, i get my brother to kill it for me...and i actually feel icky when i see it...
>_<
Its been a while hasnt it? My world has flourished, but my creativity in terms of writing has become stale. hmm...i think we need to talk about this...i dont want my creativity to reach a point of dullness.
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Friday, November 19, 2004
Priorities in life...
I got sent this email again from another friend...i left it in my gmail acct for a while...and i just read the email...i felt enlightened by it and i guess, i wanted to share it with u.
The mayonnaise jar & coffee!
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours
in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in
front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very
large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf
balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed
that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into
the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students
again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next
picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the
sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was
full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes." The professor
then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the
entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space
between the sand. The students laughed. "Now," said the professor, as
the laughter subsided, " I want you to recognize that this jar
represents your life. "The golf balls are the important things - your
spirituality, family, your children, your health, your friends, and
your favorite passions - things that if everything else was lost and
only they remained, your life would still be full. "The pebbles are
the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car.
"The sand is everything else - the small stuff. "If you put the sand
into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles
or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time
and energy! on the small stuff, you will never have room for the
things that are important to you. "Pay attention to the things that
are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to
get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another
18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.
"Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set
your priorities. The rest is just sand." One of the students raised
her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor
smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter
how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups
of coffee with a friend."
I believe this is the point in which i shall be taking a hiatus for a while, perhaps sporadically writing entries...but i make no promises...my priorities have changed.
Btw, Gavin DeGraw was quite an interesting and enjoyable concert last nite! I didnt have any micro sleeps and not only can he sing and play the piano and the guitar...he has nice arms and a cute bottom! hahaha!
;)
The mayonnaise jar & coffee!
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours
in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in
front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very
large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf
balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed
that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into
the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students
again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next
picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the
sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was
full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes." The professor
then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the
entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space
between the sand. The students laughed. "Now," said the professor, as
the laughter subsided, " I want you to recognize that this jar
represents your life. "The golf balls are the important things - your
spirituality, family, your children, your health, your friends, and
your favorite passions - things that if everything else was lost and
only they remained, your life would still be full. "The pebbles are
the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car.
"The sand is everything else - the small stuff. "If you put the sand
into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles
or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time
and energy! on the small stuff, you will never have room for the
things that are important to you. "Pay attention to the things that
are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to
get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another
18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.
"Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set
your priorities. The rest is just sand." One of the students raised
her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor
smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter
how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups
of coffee with a friend."
I believe this is the point in which i shall be taking a hiatus for a while, perhaps sporadically writing entries...but i make no promises...my priorities have changed.
Btw, Gavin DeGraw was quite an interesting and enjoyable concert last nite! I didnt have any micro sleeps and not only can he sing and play the piano and the guitar...he has nice arms and a cute bottom! hahaha!
;)
Thursday, November 18, 2004
Sunshine Lollypops...
The one thing i enjoy more than shopping for myself, is shopping for others.
I like being able buy something for someone...that they need or want...and then they smile when they open up the present or when u walk through the door and they know that u got them what they wanted...
I love it when i come home with something for my mother, altho she lectures me about wasting money...i know that in her heart and the smile on her face that she appreciates it!
My lil brother starts hugging me when i bring home something he has asked me to purchase for him...i start shoving him...then we have a fight...not a fist fight or anything violent...its like a playful shoving match...which i use to win, and threaten that i would sit on him...but now he is taller & bigger than i am, that threat doesnt work!
=P
I know he is waiting for Xmas to come...but ill give him his xbox before Xmas...and i know that the day i bring it through the door, i will be greeted with a BIG smile!
I'm getting to a point where im running out of affordable ideas though...*not a good sign*...
=(
I dont know what my older brother wants, or more importantly needs...its soo hard to find him a present! My father is even worse...He has a lot of things, things he doesnt even use...my lil brother tops up his sock count each year! *LoL* I'm the older one and i didnt put dibs on the socks! *bugger*
I wish i could buy them experiences...but they dont like doing or wont appreciate the "experiences" that i can think of offering...something adventurous...or cultural...or fun!
I'm in the process of saving for my parents 30th Anniversary present...which is 2 airfares to Vietnam and for my parents to go on a tour from the North to the South. Reason for Vietnam is because my parents are from there, but they have never been to the North and everyone has been telling them how great the tours are. Their anniversary also falls close to the date of my Grandmother's passing...so my mother can do the tour and end up in the South, in time to commemorate her mothers death.
I know my mum will love it, not sure about dad...
Now, as for my neices...its hard to decide on what to buy for them...so i resolved on the fact that they get toys from everyone else...so im doing the responsible thing and investing money into their bank accounts for them. Each birthday, each holiday...i give them money towards their future...they are at an age where they dont really comprehend or appreciate what their gifts signify...they rarely play with their toys for long either. So, hopefully when they need to pay for their uni fees...they will look back and thank me for paying most of it off for them...maybe even all of it off for them.
I asked L what i should give E as a birthday present? She writes back in an email:
"u can flash him"
hmm...i dont think he will be receiving that as a present anytime in the near future...perhaps if i was drunk...but i dont drink alcohol...so, maybe...never!
=P
E is a hard person to buy presents for...he has everything he wants (except my flashing him)...i think ill get him a blow up doll! ahahhhahaa
I like being able buy something for someone...that they need or want...and then they smile when they open up the present or when u walk through the door and they know that u got them what they wanted...
I love it when i come home with something for my mother, altho she lectures me about wasting money...i know that in her heart and the smile on her face that she appreciates it!
My lil brother starts hugging me when i bring home something he has asked me to purchase for him...i start shoving him...then we have a fight...not a fist fight or anything violent...its like a playful shoving match...which i use to win, and threaten that i would sit on him...but now he is taller & bigger than i am, that threat doesnt work!
=P
I know he is waiting for Xmas to come...but ill give him his xbox before Xmas...and i know that the day i bring it through the door, i will be greeted with a BIG smile!
I'm getting to a point where im running out of affordable ideas though...*not a good sign*...
=(
I dont know what my older brother wants, or more importantly needs...its soo hard to find him a present! My father is even worse...He has a lot of things, things he doesnt even use...my lil brother tops up his sock count each year! *LoL* I'm the older one and i didnt put dibs on the socks! *bugger*
I wish i could buy them experiences...but they dont like doing or wont appreciate the "experiences" that i can think of offering...something adventurous...or cultural...or fun!
I'm in the process of saving for my parents 30th Anniversary present...which is 2 airfares to Vietnam and for my parents to go on a tour from the North to the South. Reason for Vietnam is because my parents are from there, but they have never been to the North and everyone has been telling them how great the tours are. Their anniversary also falls close to the date of my Grandmother's passing...so my mother can do the tour and end up in the South, in time to commemorate her mothers death.
I know my mum will love it, not sure about dad...
Now, as for my neices...its hard to decide on what to buy for them...so i resolved on the fact that they get toys from everyone else...so im doing the responsible thing and investing money into their bank accounts for them. Each birthday, each holiday...i give them money towards their future...they are at an age where they dont really comprehend or appreciate what their gifts signify...they rarely play with their toys for long either. So, hopefully when they need to pay for their uni fees...they will look back and thank me for paying most of it off for them...maybe even all of it off for them.
I asked L what i should give E as a birthday present? She writes back in an email:
"u can flash him"
hmm...i dont think he will be receiving that as a present anytime in the near future...perhaps if i was drunk...but i dont drink alcohol...so, maybe...never!
=P
E is a hard person to buy presents for...he has everything he wants (except my flashing him)...i think ill get him a blow up doll! ahahhhahaa
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Shoes.
I love shoes.
I get it from my mother.
Its a shame that my feet are bigger than hers! She has these beautiful stilettos from the 80's that she only wore a couple of times, because then she had me. And being a mother of two, the stilettos just werent practical enough for day to day wear.
My mother hasnt touched those glorious shoes since then, and since she is a grandmother of two, she wont wear it ever again. She thinks that she is too old now, and more importantly...she doesnt think that its safe to wear such high heels. Which is true, i wouldnt want her to fall and break any bones because of it...
My shoe fetish started quite young.
My mother bought me plenty of shoes...and when i started to shop for myself...all i bought was shoes, bags, and accessories. Oh, i bought clothes too...but mostly shoes and bags.
I was just thinking the other day...when i dressed a tad daggy to work because i was running late. I chose the wrong shoes to wear with my trousers...and i looked in dire need of a makeover!
Shoes automatically give your outfit an *oomph*!
I love my red Nine West heels! I wear it with basic black or with my jeans and it transforms my sometimes ultra conservative look into something tre chic!
I have a thing, where i dont like wearing open toed shoes to work...it looks unprofessional to me...i made it a rule never to wear them to work, unless it was casual friday! That was the only exception.
When i go on my lunch break and i look around at these women dressed in suits & skirts, and then i look at what shoes they have on...it shocks me when they wear wrong shoes! I'm not referring to the women in joggers, cos they walked a long distance to get there and they were walking for exercise - so they were being sensible...im referring to those women who just make bad shoe choices.
They wear really nice clothes, but the shoes fail to compliment the whole look. I'm not saying that they are wearing the wrong brands...im talking about the wrong style.
That day that i looked daggy...i was dressed daggy too...and my shoes were just wrong! I realised that it looked horrible when i got to work - a bit late...i know! Thankfully, i dont have to meet and great clients, i only speak to them over the phone...hehehee...
I really believe that the shoes and accessories you choose to wear can make or break your outfit...i wonder if those women realise that their choices may be giving off the wrong perception.
I get it from my mother.
Its a shame that my feet are bigger than hers! She has these beautiful stilettos from the 80's that she only wore a couple of times, because then she had me. And being a mother of two, the stilettos just werent practical enough for day to day wear.
My mother hasnt touched those glorious shoes since then, and since she is a grandmother of two, she wont wear it ever again. She thinks that she is too old now, and more importantly...she doesnt think that its safe to wear such high heels. Which is true, i wouldnt want her to fall and break any bones because of it...
My shoe fetish started quite young.
My mother bought me plenty of shoes...and when i started to shop for myself...all i bought was shoes, bags, and accessories. Oh, i bought clothes too...but mostly shoes and bags.
I was just thinking the other day...when i dressed a tad daggy to work because i was running late. I chose the wrong shoes to wear with my trousers...and i looked in dire need of a makeover!
Shoes automatically give your outfit an *oomph*!
I love my red Nine West heels! I wear it with basic black or with my jeans and it transforms my sometimes ultra conservative look into something tre chic!
I have a thing, where i dont like wearing open toed shoes to work...it looks unprofessional to me...i made it a rule never to wear them to work, unless it was casual friday! That was the only exception.
When i go on my lunch break and i look around at these women dressed in suits & skirts, and then i look at what shoes they have on...it shocks me when they wear wrong shoes! I'm not referring to the women in joggers, cos they walked a long distance to get there and they were walking for exercise - so they were being sensible...im referring to those women who just make bad shoe choices.
They wear really nice clothes, but the shoes fail to compliment the whole look. I'm not saying that they are wearing the wrong brands...im talking about the wrong style.
That day that i looked daggy...i was dressed daggy too...and my shoes were just wrong! I realised that it looked horrible when i got to work - a bit late...i know! Thankfully, i dont have to meet and great clients, i only speak to them over the phone...hehehee...
I really believe that the shoes and accessories you choose to wear can make or break your outfit...i wonder if those women realise that their choices may be giving off the wrong perception.
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Goodbye Girls...
I am a fan of SATC.
No denying it...it filled a part of me that was empty while i was single...and in honour of that "gap", i watched it religiously every Monday nite.
Its sad to say goodbye to the girls...but as i heard, the 6 DVD box set is out today...so i guess i know what im putting on my "I-Want-4-Xmas" list!
What did i think of the ending...?
I liked the fact that it was a "happy ending" for all of them...and i dont think it was all "ideal" happy endings either...
Miranda didn't have to take in her mother in law...but she changed her stripes and showed true courage.
Charlotte didnt have to adopt a baby. They could have let her miraculously fall pregnant! But there she was consoling her husband (the most un-ideal man for her) regarding the failed adoption with that couple from "Charlotte".
Samantha didnt have to end up with Smith - although, I think i like her change of heart the most...allowing herself to be in love with him.
Carrie...I dont know about her storyline...im somewhat disappointed...and then im also relieved...
I like to believe that if u are meant to be with someone...no matter the time apart, no matter the distance...if u were truly meant to be, then u will end up together!
So, in a sense...i like the fact that she ended up with Big.
Petrovsky, as i watched the last episode, epitomised what i am in fact scared of ever having to face. This romantic man that ensues everything my heart desires...and then...when i take a leap of faith and fall for him, i find that there is this one thing that i can not in any way accept...and i find myself more lonely with him than when i was single and actually on my own.
I actually cheered when Carrie got the strength to run out on Petrovsky at the museum.
I have my personal "Christine" necklace just like Carrie's...I knew how she felt when she thought she lost it...its not how much u paid for it...the amount is insignificant with things like that...i sometimes agonise more over my fake-one-of-a-kind jewellery...than something that was made out of real gold or precious gems, when i lose it. I know its silly, but the sentimental value of those fake things are sometimes greater than the real things...and so that type of value makes it irreplaceable in my heart.
I have a soft spot for SATC...E has already said that he will join me in a SATC marathon party...so when i get my hands on the DVDs...
;)
Btw...for all those girls who watched the Chanel No. 5 Film Du Film after SATC...did u notice that the hot guy that is opposite Nicole Kidman is actually the really HOT guy in the office from "Love Actually"??? His name Rodrigo Santoro, a Brazilian actor...which i think explains the whole exotic thing! *sigh*
And the violin's in Craig Armstrong's version of Debussy's Clair De Lune (soundtrack for the commercial)...oh my...emphasised the reason why i love that 50's romanticism so so much...my heart moved like the strings on the violin!
^_^
No denying it...it filled a part of me that was empty while i was single...and in honour of that "gap", i watched it religiously every Monday nite.
Its sad to say goodbye to the girls...but as i heard, the 6 DVD box set is out today...so i guess i know what im putting on my "I-Want-4-Xmas" list!
What did i think of the ending...?
I liked the fact that it was a "happy ending" for all of them...and i dont think it was all "ideal" happy endings either...
Miranda didn't have to take in her mother in law...but she changed her stripes and showed true courage.
Charlotte didnt have to adopt a baby. They could have let her miraculously fall pregnant! But there she was consoling her husband (the most un-ideal man for her) regarding the failed adoption with that couple from "Charlotte".
Samantha didnt have to end up with Smith - although, I think i like her change of heart the most...allowing herself to be in love with him.
Carrie...I dont know about her storyline...im somewhat disappointed...and then im also relieved...
I like to believe that if u are meant to be with someone...no matter the time apart, no matter the distance...if u were truly meant to be, then u will end up together!
So, in a sense...i like the fact that she ended up with Big.
Petrovsky, as i watched the last episode, epitomised what i am in fact scared of ever having to face. This romantic man that ensues everything my heart desires...and then...when i take a leap of faith and fall for him, i find that there is this one thing that i can not in any way accept...and i find myself more lonely with him than when i was single and actually on my own.
I actually cheered when Carrie got the strength to run out on Petrovsky at the museum.
I have my personal "Christine" necklace just like Carrie's...I knew how she felt when she thought she lost it...its not how much u paid for it...the amount is insignificant with things like that...i sometimes agonise more over my fake-one-of-a-kind jewellery...than something that was made out of real gold or precious gems, when i lose it. I know its silly, but the sentimental value of those fake things are sometimes greater than the real things...and so that type of value makes it irreplaceable in my heart.
I have a soft spot for SATC...E has already said that he will join me in a SATC marathon party...so when i get my hands on the DVDs...
;)
Btw...for all those girls who watched the Chanel No. 5 Film Du Film after SATC...did u notice that the hot guy that is opposite Nicole Kidman is actually the really HOT guy in the office from "Love Actually"??? His name Rodrigo Santoro, a Brazilian actor...which i think explains the whole exotic thing! *sigh*
And the violin's in Craig Armstrong's version of Debussy's Clair De Lune (soundtrack for the commercial)...oh my...emphasised the reason why i love that 50's romanticism so so much...my heart moved like the strings on the violin!
^_^
Friday, November 12, 2004
Lighten Up!
Ignore my last post. I'm in a mess. So, i'm going to talk about "lighter" things for a moment. I need to talk about something more innocently funny!
I bought this top...i liked the colour and style, and it was a bargain buy. I wore it to a friend's BBQ and when i got home my little brother saw me walk in and he just laughed at me.
O_o
No explanation...he just bursted out laughing.
O_O
"What? What is so funny???"
"You look like a teeny bopper, sis!"
"How?"
"That top...thats what all the 15 y/o are wearing."
...well, i did think the top was "cute"...
My little brother and i were having dinner one nite. He looked at me. I asked him "What?"
"Can i drive your car when i get my P's?"
"No."
"Can you buy me a car then?"
O_O
I'm actually considering buying him a car though...but that means i wont be going overseas anytime soon...
My mum and i can have the best laughs ever! There are these pests all over the lemon tree...each time she walks past it, it will spray a nasty scent...its awful!
*yuk*
So, she is on a mission...to kill each and every one of those pests on the lemon tree!
She grabbed the broom and whacked the branches...and one by one, she squished them...she counted each one as she killed them and apparently she was only able to remove the pests from 2 branches so far...hehehehe...It was just so funny when she re-enacted the whole thing for me!
^_^
This morning as i was leaving for work...she continued her mission...armed with her hat and broom...squishing away...hahaha...
I bought this top...i liked the colour and style, and it was a bargain buy. I wore it to a friend's BBQ and when i got home my little brother saw me walk in and he just laughed at me.
O_o
No explanation...he just bursted out laughing.
O_O
"What? What is so funny???"
"You look like a teeny bopper, sis!"
"How?"
"That top...thats what all the 15 y/o are wearing."
...well, i did think the top was "cute"...
My little brother and i were having dinner one nite. He looked at me. I asked him "What?"
"Can i drive your car when i get my P's?"
"No."
"Can you buy me a car then?"
O_O
I'm actually considering buying him a car though...but that means i wont be going overseas anytime soon...
My mum and i can have the best laughs ever! There are these pests all over the lemon tree...each time she walks past it, it will spray a nasty scent...its awful!
*yuk*
So, she is on a mission...to kill each and every one of those pests on the lemon tree!
She grabbed the broom and whacked the branches...and one by one, she squished them...she counted each one as she killed them and apparently she was only able to remove the pests from 2 branches so far...hehehehe...It was just so funny when she re-enacted the whole thing for me!
^_^
This morning as i was leaving for work...she continued her mission...armed with her hat and broom...squishing away...hahaha...
Feeling less than...
I wish i could do more...be a better person...re-adjust my attitude...be more caring towards mankind...pro-actively be responsible for my actions...smile more, frown less, never to cry - except tears of joy!
At this particular moment, i feel dead inside.
I feel cold.
I'm in the office, the heater is on and im still shivering.
I was happy this morning...ready for the day...ready for tonite...ready to see him after work.
So what happened?
I was boldy taking steps towards a place that was unfamiliar...i was actually moving forward...well, i thought i was.
Then something happened this morning when i was at work.
One simple message to my mobile.
I read it, and it left me feeling helpless.
I feel scared, because when i tried to respond...communication fell short!
It may be a technical malfunction.
It may be due to various unexplained circumstances.
Or, it may be because he doesnt want to communicate with me.
There was a point when i think my heart stopped because fear got hold of it and tightened its grasp.
Fear must have cold hands.
At this particular moment, i feel dead inside.
I feel cold.
I'm in the office, the heater is on and im still shivering.
I was happy this morning...ready for the day...ready for tonite...ready to see him after work.
So what happened?
I was boldy taking steps towards a place that was unfamiliar...i was actually moving forward...well, i thought i was.
Then something happened this morning when i was at work.
One simple message to my mobile.
I read it, and it left me feeling helpless.
I feel scared, because when i tried to respond...communication fell short!
It may be a technical malfunction.
It may be due to various unexplained circumstances.
Or, it may be because he doesnt want to communicate with me.
There was a point when i think my heart stopped because fear got hold of it and tightened its grasp.
Fear must have cold hands.
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
This blog of mine...
I just dont get how he doesnt get it!
Well, i do get how he doesnt.
And it frustrates me!
I mentioned that i kept an online journal. He asked if he could read it? I dont want him to view my inner most thoughts about him that reflects poorly on me...the times in which i was on an emotional rollercoaster, going up and down in waves!
I really dont want his opinion of me to change.
I dont want him to read all this and find that he is going out with a psychotic lunatic.
But he will be reading it.
He will be reading this post.
We had a long conversation about it last nite...it continued this morning.
I understand where he is coming from in terms of:
"If it is published for the public to read, as it is on the internet...then why can't i read it?"
You're right in that sense...you could have found the link through a friend of a friend...and i would never have known.
And i also agree, that if u want a peek into my "dramas" this is the perfect way to find out who i am...i have a tendency to write how i feel when i feel them.
I also have a tendency to say the things i publish to my friends anyways...M usually knows before i write it on a post.
I dont have a problem with strangers reading my blog...because i dont care for their opinion...and i most likely, will never meet them in person...
My friends already know how i am, so what i write does not affect what they think of me - they know that im melodramatic.
What i do care about is what you will think of me after you read this.
I care about what you will think after reading about how i felt when we first dated. I care about how you will react to my 101 different insecurities...how you will feel reading about my ex or my crushes...how you will feel reading about anything that is slightly off centre.
Please remember what you promised me about reading into this part of my life.
Well, i do get how he doesnt.
And it frustrates me!
I mentioned that i kept an online journal. He asked if he could read it? I dont want him to view my inner most thoughts about him that reflects poorly on me...the times in which i was on an emotional rollercoaster, going up and down in waves!
I really dont want his opinion of me to change.
I dont want him to read all this and find that he is going out with a psychotic lunatic.
But he will be reading it.
He will be reading this post.
We had a long conversation about it last nite...it continued this morning.
I understand where he is coming from in terms of:
"If it is published for the public to read, as it is on the internet...then why can't i read it?"
You're right in that sense...you could have found the link through a friend of a friend...and i would never have known.
And i also agree, that if u want a peek into my "dramas" this is the perfect way to find out who i am...i have a tendency to write how i feel when i feel them.
I also have a tendency to say the things i publish to my friends anyways...M usually knows before i write it on a post.
I dont have a problem with strangers reading my blog...because i dont care for their opinion...and i most likely, will never meet them in person...
My friends already know how i am, so what i write does not affect what they think of me - they know that im melodramatic.
What i do care about is what you will think of me after you read this.
I care about what you will think after reading about how i felt when we first dated. I care about how you will react to my 101 different insecurities...how you will feel reading about my ex or my crushes...how you will feel reading about anything that is slightly off centre.
Please remember what you promised me about reading into this part of my life.
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
New Program...
I saw a different personal trainer last nite.
He told me the facts.
Scientific facts.
Cold hard facts.
Basically, what i needed to do to get out of my plateau...and the new program i have is harsh. He even said so.
But since ive been going to the gym for nearly 5 years, i need it to be hard.
He didnt tell me to change my diet in anyway...although, i know myself that i have been eating more junk and after the Good Food Month, those rich desserts have finally caught up with my body. And since i offered to cut out the junk before he could suggest it, i think he knew that i would be fine in the food stakes.
The basics in which i learnt last nite was that i should do my weights/resistance training before my cardio.
Why?
To burn the sugar that the first 20 minutes of my cardio would have been wasted on. And when ur training, you need the sugar (energy) for the weights/resistance workout. After i burn the sugar, my cardio training will be focused on burning the fat! Which is what were trying to do in the first place, but neglect to realise what our body is actually doing in the first 20 minutes of our exercising.
Trust the mirror. If your honest with urself, u will see the improvements with ur own eyes. I said i preferred the waistline policy of my trousers or pants. He said that was a good way too, since women have very little muscles around the waist (ie majority of fat is around there)...if the waistline goes down, the bodyfat has decreased.
Our bodies are made up of different muscle fibres. About 65% of our muscle fibres get worked out based on power training...that is doing less reps and challenging it with more resistance. Approximately 35% of our muscle fibres respond to repetitious stimuli.
I have been focusing on the wrong type of workout for my muscles. Ive based more of my resistance training on repetition than power. So, my body isnt challenged anymore...and so my plateau remains unbudged.
=T
I have three different programs for 3 different days.
Ideally, he wants me at the gym 4 times a week, 5 times is better.
On the weekend...he'd like me to continue with my "incidental" exercising...like grocery shopping and carrying the bags as i already do.
I feel tired reading what i need to do, but i promised my trainer that i would try anything if he said that it would give me results.
So, for the next 5 weeks we'll see how far i get with the new program...if i lose the kilos i want to lose...if my arms become less flabby...if my body fat decreases...if i can bring my heart condition back to its peak...etc...
I'll try to keep those who are interested on my progress.
He told me the facts.
Scientific facts.
Cold hard facts.
Basically, what i needed to do to get out of my plateau...and the new program i have is harsh. He even said so.
But since ive been going to the gym for nearly 5 years, i need it to be hard.
He didnt tell me to change my diet in anyway...although, i know myself that i have been eating more junk and after the Good Food Month, those rich desserts have finally caught up with my body. And since i offered to cut out the junk before he could suggest it, i think he knew that i would be fine in the food stakes.
The basics in which i learnt last nite was that i should do my weights/resistance training before my cardio.
Why?
To burn the sugar that the first 20 minutes of my cardio would have been wasted on. And when ur training, you need the sugar (energy) for the weights/resistance workout. After i burn the sugar, my cardio training will be focused on burning the fat! Which is what were trying to do in the first place, but neglect to realise what our body is actually doing in the first 20 minutes of our exercising.
Trust the mirror. If your honest with urself, u will see the improvements with ur own eyes. I said i preferred the waistline policy of my trousers or pants. He said that was a good way too, since women have very little muscles around the waist (ie majority of fat is around there)...if the waistline goes down, the bodyfat has decreased.
Our bodies are made up of different muscle fibres. About 65% of our muscle fibres get worked out based on power training...that is doing less reps and challenging it with more resistance. Approximately 35% of our muscle fibres respond to repetitious stimuli.
I have been focusing on the wrong type of workout for my muscles. Ive based more of my resistance training on repetition than power. So, my body isnt challenged anymore...and so my plateau remains unbudged.
=T
I have three different programs for 3 different days.
Ideally, he wants me at the gym 4 times a week, 5 times is better.
On the weekend...he'd like me to continue with my "incidental" exercising...like grocery shopping and carrying the bags as i already do.
I feel tired reading what i need to do, but i promised my trainer that i would try anything if he said that it would give me results.
So, for the next 5 weeks we'll see how far i get with the new program...if i lose the kilos i want to lose...if my arms become less flabby...if my body fat decreases...if i can bring my heart condition back to its peak...etc...
I'll try to keep those who are interested on my progress.
Monday, November 08, 2004
Have fun in San Jose!
My friend sprung it on me while i was at a party celebrating another friend's birthday. He revealed that he was leaving soon...
You see, after arriving at the party, where it was full with asians, i find myself holding my bf's hand hoping that we dont get separated in the dark and then we fail to find eachother until we both leave the party to call eachother outside the venue.
I had trouble finding people that i wanted to see, until E walked around with alcohol in one hand and spotted me! After a hug we went in search of everyone...i was following one friend as i promised to intro my bf to him...but before i could catch up i spot my friend - the birthday boy...
And since i promised him that i would intro my bf for a "thumbs up or thumbs down" to the birthday boy...i thought, courtesy to him, intro bf to him first. So, i lost that other friend, but i gather he was only heading in one direction - the dance floor, or should i say "the stage or the cage"? *LoL*
Birthday boy gave my bf the "thumbs up"...not sure what it was based on since it was very dark in there and all my bf mustered was a hand shake and a "happy birthday, it's nice to meet u"...hehehehe...
But anyways...for those who are wondering what my bf thinks of them...he thinks u guys are a nice bunch of people...otherwise, why would i have u guys as friends?
;)
As i left the party, that friend that i mentioned "sprung" it on me, decided to inform me that he was leaving the country...indefinitely! I asked why?
=(
It seems that work decided to transfer him and he has made the decision to sell everything here and go there and live for...ever?
Since security shoo-ed us away from the stairs saying that we were not allowed to loiter there, i had to quickly say goodbye for that nite, and possible goodbye forever!
>_<~
I miss him already, and he is still in Sydney...i want to see him as much as i can before he leaves...but he wont tell me the day that he is jetting off!
His exact words are:
"yeah selling everything including myself I am not gonna tell you when I will be gone so you have to be nice every single moment from now on
The clock's ticking"
=(
Another problem...im fudgin booked for most days in November! I need to clear my schedule...
You see, after arriving at the party, where it was full with asians, i find myself holding my bf's hand hoping that we dont get separated in the dark and then we fail to find eachother until we both leave the party to call eachother outside the venue.
I had trouble finding people that i wanted to see, until E walked around with alcohol in one hand and spotted me! After a hug we went in search of everyone...i was following one friend as i promised to intro my bf to him...but before i could catch up i spot my friend - the birthday boy...
And since i promised him that i would intro my bf for a "thumbs up or thumbs down" to the birthday boy...i thought, courtesy to him, intro bf to him first. So, i lost that other friend, but i gather he was only heading in one direction - the dance floor, or should i say "the stage or the cage"? *LoL*
Birthday boy gave my bf the "thumbs up"...not sure what it was based on since it was very dark in there and all my bf mustered was a hand shake and a "happy birthday, it's nice to meet u"...hehehehe...
But anyways...for those who are wondering what my bf thinks of them...he thinks u guys are a nice bunch of people...otherwise, why would i have u guys as friends?
;)
As i left the party, that friend that i mentioned "sprung" it on me, decided to inform me that he was leaving the country...indefinitely! I asked why?
=(
It seems that work decided to transfer him and he has made the decision to sell everything here and go there and live for...ever?
Since security shoo-ed us away from the stairs saying that we were not allowed to loiter there, i had to quickly say goodbye for that nite, and possible goodbye forever!
>_<~
I miss him already, and he is still in Sydney...i want to see him as much as i can before he leaves...but he wont tell me the day that he is jetting off!
His exact words are:
"yeah selling everything including myself I am not gonna tell you when I will be gone so you have to be nice every single moment from now on
The clock's ticking"
=(
Another problem...im fudgin booked for most days in November! I need to clear my schedule...
Friday, November 05, 2004
Politically correct?
Im not big on politics.
I hear snippets of it here and there...even when our federal elections were on...i thought to myself: "what is the point if the seat in which i make a vote is a Labor seat?"
If my vote doesnt make a dent on swinging the vote which way, then...oh well.
=T
And i think any politician will screw me over side ways...it doesnt matter which party they are with!!!
Its the same with the US elections. I know that in the end there will be an effect on our country some way, it will be filtered through in one way or another...which is independent on who leads the US.
Ive noticed alot of Australians expressing their concerns of Bush being re-elected and Kerry not winning. Expressing their feelings about what other damage Bush will do. Bush is greedy. Bush is this. Bush is that. The war, the war!!!
And then i hear my work colleagues talking about it, and one of the guys i work with was actually hoping that Bush would win. The others were bagging him out...but he isnt someone you want to bag. He is educated and his thoughts on the matter are carefully considered, on a global level.
I thought, seeing that i have read other's opinion on the matter...all anti-Bush...i should ask him and see what he thought since he was pro-Bush (in a way), for him to explain to me why he was supporting Bush.
He told me a million and one things, and to be honest, my memory is crap (short or long term - its bad), so i cant remember everything he said! But what has stuck in my head is that he feels that Bush is decisive. Unlike Kerry, who could easily be manipulated into doing anything everyone says he should do. Kerry would try to please everyone. Bush has the US in its best interest, (and my workmate does not deny that Bush is also looking out for no. 1).
He told me how he felt about Europe and their stance on things, that they are very insular...while the US say that "if u want to join us, u are welcome to join us!" He looks at the US in terms of IT and how it has made us progressed, opening up communication to the world. [I cant remember why he was mentioning this...there was a point, but i obviously dont recall what it was! Oh, he mentions this in terms of the economy, the US dollar versus the Euros, and how the Europeans are anti-Bush!]
My workmate wants to see progression for all, in terms of communication and how the countries all relate to eachother. He sees Bush as working towards fulfilling what he is hoping for. He doesnt feel that Kerry and his policies is looking forward to the future.
Like i said, i dont particularly care about politics...although, i should take a bigger interest in it...Nothing is ever clear cut.
My workmate admittedly said that his opinion changes the more he reads on the subject and the more he spends time overseas to observe the changes...
Right now, he is happy that Bush got re-elected, but he is concerned about the extreme conservatives, in the coming years and how their ideals will impact us.
He said to me: "...there will always be something to worry about..."
I hear snippets of it here and there...even when our federal elections were on...i thought to myself: "what is the point if the seat in which i make a vote is a Labor seat?"
If my vote doesnt make a dent on swinging the vote which way, then...oh well.
=T
And i think any politician will screw me over side ways...it doesnt matter which party they are with!!!
Its the same with the US elections. I know that in the end there will be an effect on our country some way, it will be filtered through in one way or another...which is independent on who leads the US.
Ive noticed alot of Australians expressing their concerns of Bush being re-elected and Kerry not winning. Expressing their feelings about what other damage Bush will do. Bush is greedy. Bush is this. Bush is that. The war, the war!!!
And then i hear my work colleagues talking about it, and one of the guys i work with was actually hoping that Bush would win. The others were bagging him out...but he isnt someone you want to bag. He is educated and his thoughts on the matter are carefully considered, on a global level.
I thought, seeing that i have read other's opinion on the matter...all anti-Bush...i should ask him and see what he thought since he was pro-Bush (in a way), for him to explain to me why he was supporting Bush.
He told me a million and one things, and to be honest, my memory is crap (short or long term - its bad), so i cant remember everything he said! But what has stuck in my head is that he feels that Bush is decisive. Unlike Kerry, who could easily be manipulated into doing anything everyone says he should do. Kerry would try to please everyone. Bush has the US in its best interest, (and my workmate does not deny that Bush is also looking out for no. 1).
He told me how he felt about Europe and their stance on things, that they are very insular...while the US say that "if u want to join us, u are welcome to join us!" He looks at the US in terms of IT and how it has made us progressed, opening up communication to the world. [I cant remember why he was mentioning this...there was a point, but i obviously dont recall what it was! Oh, he mentions this in terms of the economy, the US dollar versus the Euros, and how the Europeans are anti-Bush!]
My workmate wants to see progression for all, in terms of communication and how the countries all relate to eachother. He sees Bush as working towards fulfilling what he is hoping for. He doesnt feel that Kerry and his policies is looking forward to the future.
Like i said, i dont particularly care about politics...although, i should take a bigger interest in it...Nothing is ever clear cut.
My workmate admittedly said that his opinion changes the more he reads on the subject and the more he spends time overseas to observe the changes...
Right now, he is happy that Bush got re-elected, but he is concerned about the extreme conservatives, in the coming years and how their ideals will impact us.
He said to me: "...there will always be something to worry about..."
Thursday, November 04, 2004
The story she told a nation...
On breakfast radio today, they were urging girls who had a Bridget Jones' type moment to call up the radio station and share it with the rest of the nation.
A girl called and told of a story about one nite when she went out with her girlfriends...she got really trashed and then went home. She just got into a recent relationship with a guy and he was in bed. She hopped into bed but then felt sick and instead of going to the nearest bathroom in the house upstairs, she tumbled down the stairs to go to the bathroom there.
She cut the story short and went on describing how the boyfriend got worried so he went to the bathroom and knocked on the door asking if she was okay. He didnt hear a response and proceeded to open the door.
What he found was his girlfriend stark naked in front of him, trying to hold the walls of the bathroom up, shouting at him: "Would you leave me alone, so i can have my dignity!?!?" But apparently she slurred that and it sounded more like "Wooo u lemme aloooohhhh, so i cammmm habbbb my diiiignniifffiiii??"
His response to her was: "I'll hold your hair for you..." while she upchucked.
When she said that line, before she continued with what happened next, i thought to myself..."That guy is a keeper...i hope they are still together!"
Moral of the story is, no matter how embarassing the situation...if ur boyfriend offers to do something that helps restore some dignity to you, marry him straight away!
They are now happily married!
=)
A girl called and told of a story about one nite when she went out with her girlfriends...she got really trashed and then went home. She just got into a recent relationship with a guy and he was in bed. She hopped into bed but then felt sick and instead of going to the nearest bathroom in the house upstairs, she tumbled down the stairs to go to the bathroom there.
She cut the story short and went on describing how the boyfriend got worried so he went to the bathroom and knocked on the door asking if she was okay. He didnt hear a response and proceeded to open the door.
What he found was his girlfriend stark naked in front of him, trying to hold the walls of the bathroom up, shouting at him: "Would you leave me alone, so i can have my dignity!?!?" But apparently she slurred that and it sounded more like "Wooo u lemme aloooohhhh, so i cammmm habbbb my diiiignniifffiiii??"
His response to her was: "I'll hold your hair for you..." while she upchucked.
When she said that line, before she continued with what happened next, i thought to myself..."That guy is a keeper...i hope they are still together!"
Moral of the story is, no matter how embarassing the situation...if ur boyfriend offers to do something that helps restore some dignity to you, marry him straight away!
They are now happily married!
=)
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Remember the gym guy?
There was a time where i sorta had fun perving on the guy at the gym...and for some reason when i started seeing "him", i didnt see the guy at the gym any more.
Perhaps it was the fact that my lifestyle changed slightly, so i didnt go to the gym at the same time as he did...but recently, i noticed that he was back.
Or maybe im the one that is back at the gym?
Either way, i see him at the gym now and its weird...he had many opportunities to make eyes with me when i was single...but now that im taken, its like he wants to speak to me...
And he knows im unavailable, because one nite, when i was speaking to my friend...he was working out right in front of us...and because it was late at nite...barely anyone around, i had no inhibitions in speaking in an audible tone of voice. I was talking to my friend about my "bf". So, yes, he knows...
I saw him the last few times i was at the gym, and it seems like he wants to approach me, but doesnt know how to start a conversation...ahahahhahaa...
So, that is what i think anyways...for all i know, he could just be interested in finding out whether im "that" girl from such-and-such place, who happens to know so-and-so?! *LoL*
Perhaps it was the fact that my lifestyle changed slightly, so i didnt go to the gym at the same time as he did...but recently, i noticed that he was back.
Or maybe im the one that is back at the gym?
Either way, i see him at the gym now and its weird...he had many opportunities to make eyes with me when i was single...but now that im taken, its like he wants to speak to me...
And he knows im unavailable, because one nite, when i was speaking to my friend...he was working out right in front of us...and because it was late at nite...barely anyone around, i had no inhibitions in speaking in an audible tone of voice. I was talking to my friend about my "bf". So, yes, he knows...
I saw him the last few times i was at the gym, and it seems like he wants to approach me, but doesnt know how to start a conversation...ahahahhahaa...
So, that is what i think anyways...for all i know, he could just be interested in finding out whether im "that" girl from such-and-such place, who happens to know so-and-so?! *LoL*
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Trifecta...
So long, farewell...
I was ecstatic when Haley got kicked out from Idol last nite.
I have never liked her from the start...
To me she seemed pretentious...look at the fact that she had a "Thank You" speech prepared for last nite. I heard she "prepared it a few weeks back"...but *ugh*!
She always appeared selfish to me. The moment she knew she was safe each week, she would rush to her "safe" seat on the couch...other contestants who find out that they are NOT getting booted off, linger on the stage while hugging the other contestant saying good bye.
Grrr...
I told him that he was in "no position to say that to me"!
He got offended.
I got pissed off!
He made me cry out of disappointment.
I'm over it now...fudgin PMS!
Hole in my heart
SATC is capable of filling up the void in a single girl's heart. But to a girl who is in a relationship...it has the capacity to create a bigger void.
I was swept away from all the romanticism between Carrie and Alexsandr...especially that horse and buggy ride at the end.
Im trying to be realistic, really i am...but i cant deny that it is what i want...from my partner...
He asked me to go to the World Cup with him in 2006. Going to Germany isnt a bad idea...i love travelling and i want to travel as much as i possibly can...but i was daunted, and a bit frightened...he obviously knows what he wants...i am obviously more skeptical and cautious.
I didnt say yes, but i didnt say no...and i told him that i was astonished that he had asked me to go with him...i asked how he was so certain that we would be together in 2006? He questioned me, "Dont u think we'll be together then?"
I dont know.
Who can be certain of where they will be tomoro?
No one.
I was ecstatic when Haley got kicked out from Idol last nite.
I have never liked her from the start...
To me she seemed pretentious...look at the fact that she had a "Thank You" speech prepared for last nite. I heard she "prepared it a few weeks back"...but *ugh*!
She always appeared selfish to me. The moment she knew she was safe each week, she would rush to her "safe" seat on the couch...other contestants who find out that they are NOT getting booted off, linger on the stage while hugging the other contestant saying good bye.
Grrr...
I told him that he was in "no position to say that to me"!
He got offended.
I got pissed off!
He made me cry out of disappointment.
I'm over it now...fudgin PMS!
Hole in my heart
SATC is capable of filling up the void in a single girl's heart. But to a girl who is in a relationship...it has the capacity to create a bigger void.
I was swept away from all the romanticism between Carrie and Alexsandr...especially that horse and buggy ride at the end.
Im trying to be realistic, really i am...but i cant deny that it is what i want...from my partner...
He asked me to go to the World Cup with him in 2006. Going to Germany isnt a bad idea...i love travelling and i want to travel as much as i possibly can...but i was daunted, and a bit frightened...he obviously knows what he wants...i am obviously more skeptical and cautious.
I didnt say yes, but i didnt say no...and i told him that i was astonished that he had asked me to go with him...i asked how he was so certain that we would be together in 2006? He questioned me, "Dont u think we'll be together then?"
I dont know.
Who can be certain of where they will be tomoro?
No one.
Monday, November 01, 2004
Lost in the Translation...
I've noticed with the movies I have watched recently...they are movies which are limited in dialogue. A lot has been left to the music to envoke emotions and to transcend between different scenes.
When i watched Lost in Translation last year (or was it early this year?), during the Moonlight Cinemas...it was like a new thing...dialogue was minimal...you had to be more observant to the actions of the actors using ur eyes, rather than paying attention by listening with your ears...
I caught the Triplets of Belleville (cartoon) during the French Film Fest, and that was also a movie with little speech between characters. In that sense, its good for me in terms of translating the French to English. But if you fail to pay attention, you will possibly fail to fully understand the movie as it is told via the characters expressions and actions, and the soundtrack of the movie.
About a fortnite ago, we went to watch Zatoichi at Dendy's. Its a Japanese musical/action type of movie. It was suppose to rival movies of the like as Kill Bill vol. 1 and 2. Once again, the dialogue was limited...very short and sweet...the farmers in the scene incorporated the use of their farming utensils as though they were musical instruments...they even have a tap dance sequence!
I was a bit disappointed by the ending...but then i was disappointed by the ending in Kill Bill vol. 2.
Yesterday, i went watch "The Consequences of Love" - part of the Italian Film Fest in Leichardt. Once again, i find myself watching a movie that has little dialogue...it was reviewed as an Italian movie that was much a thriller like "The Usual Suspects"...i, perhaps, anticipated much more...there was little violence, or action...maybe i didnt delve into the movie as much as i should have? It was very subtle...there were some high points where some sarcastic comments shone through...amazingly enough, i understood and laughed on que!
He said the highlight was the 2 BMWs in the movie and the way the movie ended, as in his opinion...it could not have ended in any other plausible way! Out of 4 stars, he would give it 1...im leaning towards giving it 2.5 stars.
So, i disagree.
I dont know what made it interesting to me...maybe its because im trying to learn to express more without expressing too much, by cutting out my dialogue!
He is always reminding me that actions speak louder than words. im always arguing that women prefer verbal communication...
One male friend puts it nicely when he said:
"The way to a woman's heart is through her ears, the way to a man's heart is through his stomach!"
I really agree with this friend's comment...but lets leave it at that!
Basically, i am making my attempt to just absorb and observe actions and i am trying awfully hard to eliminate verbal communication as the only means to understanding. Which is probably why i like those movies so much, they are quietly teaching me something...a life lesson perhaps?
When i watched Lost in Translation last year (or was it early this year?), during the Moonlight Cinemas...it was like a new thing...dialogue was minimal...you had to be more observant to the actions of the actors using ur eyes, rather than paying attention by listening with your ears...
I caught the Triplets of Belleville (cartoon) during the French Film Fest, and that was also a movie with little speech between characters. In that sense, its good for me in terms of translating the French to English. But if you fail to pay attention, you will possibly fail to fully understand the movie as it is told via the characters expressions and actions, and the soundtrack of the movie.
About a fortnite ago, we went to watch Zatoichi at Dendy's. Its a Japanese musical/action type of movie. It was suppose to rival movies of the like as Kill Bill vol. 1 and 2. Once again, the dialogue was limited...very short and sweet...the farmers in the scene incorporated the use of their farming utensils as though they were musical instruments...they even have a tap dance sequence!
I was a bit disappointed by the ending...but then i was disappointed by the ending in Kill Bill vol. 2.
Yesterday, i went watch "The Consequences of Love" - part of the Italian Film Fest in Leichardt. Once again, i find myself watching a movie that has little dialogue...it was reviewed as an Italian movie that was much a thriller like "The Usual Suspects"...i, perhaps, anticipated much more...there was little violence, or action...maybe i didnt delve into the movie as much as i should have? It was very subtle...there were some high points where some sarcastic comments shone through...amazingly enough, i understood and laughed on que!
He said the highlight was the 2 BMWs in the movie and the way the movie ended, as in his opinion...it could not have ended in any other plausible way! Out of 4 stars, he would give it 1...im leaning towards giving it 2.5 stars.
So, i disagree.
I dont know what made it interesting to me...maybe its because im trying to learn to express more without expressing too much, by cutting out my dialogue!
He is always reminding me that actions speak louder than words. im always arguing that women prefer verbal communication...
One male friend puts it nicely when he said:
"The way to a woman's heart is through her ears, the way to a man's heart is through his stomach!"
I really agree with this friend's comment...but lets leave it at that!
Basically, i am making my attempt to just absorb and observe actions and i am trying awfully hard to eliminate verbal communication as the only means to understanding. Which is probably why i like those movies so much, they are quietly teaching me something...a life lesson perhaps?
