My world is spiralling and its going out of control. I'm surrounded by 4 extremely energetic kids 8 y.o and under.
Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you are gonna get...and these kids, although I love them...save grace they are not mine.
I took two to the Easter Show yesterday...it was draining. The only exciting thing was leaving the showground and exiting the gate which was being manned by a cute asian guy. What made the day even better was the strawberry milkshake I had in the afternoon with some friends, and there was no kids around.
Today, I took 4 to the local Westfields to buy one of them a swimming costume. It was a nightmare and I actually sounded like one of those firm parents, chatising another kid who hopped onto the ride I paid for, for my 4 kids. The kid hopped on and was leaning out and whacked me each time he went by, so I spoke to him in a stern voice. I'm glad it shook him and he hopped off.
I'm probably pms-ing. Not a good time I guess to have 4 squealing kids around me. Makes me promise that I will never have kids to myself. Cross my heart...hope to...uno the rest of that statement!
So, 27 y/o soon. Looking forward to it? No, not really...but then again, i feel like im 20 y/o...so, it shouldnt make a difference.
I have been taken aback by someone, who has been incredibly up front with me. Basically declaring he likes me and would like to see how far it will go. I don't know what to do. We went through an interviewing process, where I asked 101 questions...a lot of it relationship based to ensure I felt comfortable with where it could potentially lead to. *sigh*
Everything is taking a toll on me. I'm drained from work. I'm drained from the kids. I'm drained from the every increasing social life (that I shouldnt be complaining about, but can't help it) and to add to everything... I get told by E that he has chosen Celine Dion over me! His justification is:
"Do you know how much those tickets cost me?"
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Pub crawl...
It was meant to be a reunion...but what happened was we went, said hello, then left and strolled up the road to the Nelson Brasserie for a nice dinner and an environment much quieter than the Lowenbrau to actually talk and catch up with some friends.
My steak was great and the dark chocolate creme brulee was soo much better! The pinot noir was also lovely and smooth.
It was great to get together and have this time to just talk. Catch up with what everyone was up to in their life and what the plans were in the future. After the brasserie closed up shop we headed to the Waterloo for more drinks and more talking...we stayed there until they closed up shop...hehe...after which time, the couple went home and the singles headed to the next place close by. We bumped into another single friend and the 4 of us went into the Argyle.
There was soo much to cover, I mean it is 10 years worth of catching up. How crazy is that? I still feel as though i'm 20 and yet here I am celebrating 10 years out of high school.
Its really weird. The friend I headed to the city with also mentioned that when he was younger, he sort of saw himself in a particular light for when he was 27 y/o. He pictured that he would have achieved a certain amount of things...but he hasn't. Not sure if he is disappointed or not, but he did admit that he is happy with how things are now. So, thats a positive...i guess.
I think this has made everyone rethink their futures. It certainly has forced me to.
My steak was great and the dark chocolate creme brulee was soo much better! The pinot noir was also lovely and smooth.
It was great to get together and have this time to just talk. Catch up with what everyone was up to in their life and what the plans were in the future. After the brasserie closed up shop we headed to the Waterloo for more drinks and more talking...we stayed there until they closed up shop...hehe...after which time, the couple went home and the singles headed to the next place close by. We bumped into another single friend and the 4 of us went into the Argyle.
There was soo much to cover, I mean it is 10 years worth of catching up. How crazy is that? I still feel as though i'm 20 and yet here I am celebrating 10 years out of high school.
Its really weird. The friend I headed to the city with also mentioned that when he was younger, he sort of saw himself in a particular light for when he was 27 y/o. He pictured that he would have achieved a certain amount of things...but he hasn't. Not sure if he is disappointed or not, but he did admit that he is happy with how things are now. So, thats a positive...i guess.
I think this has made everyone rethink their futures. It certainly has forced me to.
Friday, March 21, 2008
Happy Easter...
I hope everyone is having a Happy Easter...I'm enjoying myself, so it would be really good if everyone else is too.
Update on the poaching...lets just say I got screwed over. At the end of the day, its just business, but it doesn't change the fact that it was poorly taken care of from the start. Simple civility was ignored, or should I say non-existant. But it is over and I will move on.
I just found out something really interesting about Mum. When we were kids and wanted a puppy, she was adamantly against it. I always thought it was because she didn't like animals. That was the way she sold it to us. Yeah, there were the typical sentiments about who would look after the puppy, who would take it on walks, who would clean up the poop, etc? But I was never told the underlying reason.
It was only this morning that I learnt why she never wanted us to have a puppy.
The revelation was only because my Aunt's dog just gave birth to 3 cute pomeranians and my nieces wanted to visit their Great Aunt and see the new borns today. I asked Mum, what would happen if the girls insisted that they wanted a puppy after holding them in their hands??? Is my brother going to allow them to have a dog? Because i'll be tempted...
Mum then told me about how when she was young Grandfather had a dog and the dog obviously died. She told me about how the dog was part of the family and she was really sad when it passed on.
I guess what she was really revealing to me was the fact that she didnt want us to be traumatised by a pets death. I think this is a better reason, other than she simply hates animals and who would take care of it. And she had every right to protect us when we were kids, from the same trauma she felt when she lost her dog.
Mini high school reunion tomorrow night...how weird is that? 10 years after high school...I haven't seen most people since the last day of school.
When I was younger, especially when high school finished I wondered if anyone would ever organise a reunion and after watching movies like "Romy and Michelle's High School Reunion", I wondered what I would have achieved to share, when someone asked about my 10 years after school.
I had a list of things I wanted to achieve, to show that I was successful. But right now, I don't know if you can say what I have done so far equates to "success". Yeah, I finished uni. I have a mortgage. I'm a professional. I have business cards - 2 types to be exact. My expenses get paid by the company. I have a work mobile. I have a laptop and wireless broadband, also thanks to the company. But all of this doesn't quite amount to "success" for me.
I'm single, with no real hobbies. My profession takes up a lot of my time.
I have 2 gorgeous nieces, with another niece/nephew in the oven...but they aren't my kids...not that in the greater scheme of things, would I really want 2 kids at almost 27 y/o.
I guess I'm just in a contemplative mood now because I reconnected with a friend from high school via facebook. I think I could say that she was the dark horse who has come from the sidelines to win the race.
In an email she basically gave me the condensed version of her last 10 years.
Went to uni, studied design. Finished uni and married a pharmacist. Worked as a graphic designer for a year. Stopped to help her hubby open shop for a year. Had baby #1, became at home mum for a year. Went back to work, operating a company from home. And now has just had baby #2. Recently, she and hubby are building their dream home near Hornsby at the moment.
Compare my life to hers...I feel like I haven't achieved much.
Okay...this is a negative note to finish on...so forget about what I have said and just think about your 4 day long weekend...and enjoy.
Update on the poaching...lets just say I got screwed over. At the end of the day, its just business, but it doesn't change the fact that it was poorly taken care of from the start. Simple civility was ignored, or should I say non-existant. But it is over and I will move on.
I just found out something really interesting about Mum. When we were kids and wanted a puppy, she was adamantly against it. I always thought it was because she didn't like animals. That was the way she sold it to us. Yeah, there were the typical sentiments about who would look after the puppy, who would take it on walks, who would clean up the poop, etc? But I was never told the underlying reason.
It was only this morning that I learnt why she never wanted us to have a puppy.
The revelation was only because my Aunt's dog just gave birth to 3 cute pomeranians and my nieces wanted to visit their Great Aunt and see the new borns today. I asked Mum, what would happen if the girls insisted that they wanted a puppy after holding them in their hands??? Is my brother going to allow them to have a dog? Because i'll be tempted...
Mum then told me about how when she was young Grandfather had a dog and the dog obviously died. She told me about how the dog was part of the family and she was really sad when it passed on.
I guess what she was really revealing to me was the fact that she didnt want us to be traumatised by a pets death. I think this is a better reason, other than she simply hates animals and who would take care of it. And she had every right to protect us when we were kids, from the same trauma she felt when she lost her dog.
Mini high school reunion tomorrow night...how weird is that? 10 years after high school...I haven't seen most people since the last day of school.
When I was younger, especially when high school finished I wondered if anyone would ever organise a reunion and after watching movies like "Romy and Michelle's High School Reunion", I wondered what I would have achieved to share, when someone asked about my 10 years after school.
I had a list of things I wanted to achieve, to show that I was successful. But right now, I don't know if you can say what I have done so far equates to "success". Yeah, I finished uni. I have a mortgage. I'm a professional. I have business cards - 2 types to be exact. My expenses get paid by the company. I have a work mobile. I have a laptop and wireless broadband, also thanks to the company. But all of this doesn't quite amount to "success" for me.
I'm single, with no real hobbies. My profession takes up a lot of my time.
I have 2 gorgeous nieces, with another niece/nephew in the oven...but they aren't my kids...not that in the greater scheme of things, would I really want 2 kids at almost 27 y/o.
I guess I'm just in a contemplative mood now because I reconnected with a friend from high school via facebook. I think I could say that she was the dark horse who has come from the sidelines to win the race.
In an email she basically gave me the condensed version of her last 10 years.
Went to uni, studied design. Finished uni and married a pharmacist. Worked as a graphic designer for a year. Stopped to help her hubby open shop for a year. Had baby #1, became at home mum for a year. Went back to work, operating a company from home. And now has just had baby #2. Recently, she and hubby are building their dream home near Hornsby at the moment.
Compare my life to hers...I feel like I haven't achieved much.
Okay...this is a negative note to finish on...so forget about what I have said and just think about your 4 day long weekend...and enjoy.
Monday, March 03, 2008
Aggressive poaching...
This is a story about the aggressive head hunting that never happened.
I was about to make a farewell speech for a workmate on Friday afternoon. Why was I making the speech, I don't know. Its not like i'm in charge or anything. The person leaving was a manager of his own team, you would think one of them would have said something...pfft...engineers!
Well, before I could start the speech, I get a phonecall on my mobile and I am told by the person on the line that "so&so" will be contacting me over the weekend because the "poaching process" needs to be finalised by Monday.
I think to myself: "Who calls on the weekend for business?!" and I also think: "I hope when they call I am not sleeping off the night before, because I need to be alert to negotiate!"
But the call never came. I know for a fact that they do need to finalise things today...well, they really needed to finalise it by the last day of February, with me anyway. Its not a very good start. I'm disappointed and I'm sure the end person is disappointed too. On so many levels, it leaves me to be ruthless and business like for negotiations. Which is a plus.
I'm supposed to go to the dark side in a month's time...but there is no formal commitment at this point in time.
I gave my manager the heads up (the manager that pays me) that due to the circumstances, if I was offered an exceptional offer by "so&so" I would be moving on. I think he freaked out. He probably thinks that he can convince me to stay...funny that.
Lets see what will happen throughout today...
I was about to make a farewell speech for a workmate on Friday afternoon. Why was I making the speech, I don't know. Its not like i'm in charge or anything. The person leaving was a manager of his own team, you would think one of them would have said something...pfft...engineers!
Well, before I could start the speech, I get a phonecall on my mobile and I am told by the person on the line that "so&so" will be contacting me over the weekend because the "poaching process" needs to be finalised by Monday.
I think to myself: "Who calls on the weekend for business?!" and I also think: "I hope when they call I am not sleeping off the night before, because I need to be alert to negotiate!"
But the call never came. I know for a fact that they do need to finalise things today...well, they really needed to finalise it by the last day of February, with me anyway. Its not a very good start. I'm disappointed and I'm sure the end person is disappointed too. On so many levels, it leaves me to be ruthless and business like for negotiations. Which is a plus.
I'm supposed to go to the dark side in a month's time...but there is no formal commitment at this point in time.
I gave my manager the heads up (the manager that pays me) that due to the circumstances, if I was offered an exceptional offer by "so&so" I would be moving on. I think he freaked out. He probably thinks that he can convince me to stay...funny that.
Lets see what will happen throughout today...
