My lil brother had a gf.
He broke up with her.
I admit, as a big sister, i wasn't impressed that he had a gf so young. I really thought that the least he could do was respect my mum's wishes and abstain from getting involved with anyone until he finished his HSC. But he didnt listen to mum and now he has broken up with that gf and is moving on to another girl.
The thing is, he is such a player.
So, as he was dating one girl...but he managed to vie for another's attention. And he didn't practice the "waiting out of respect" period! That period where you don't date anyone until all ties are severed and so that you dont hurt the other's feelings!
No, he jumps from being with someone, and a day being single and then he is already on the bandwagon with the next one! >_<
I'm so ashamed!
I thought at the least, that my brother would be humble with his looks and brains...well if he used his brains...*sigh*!
It was wrong to tell him that he was the good looking one, the one blessed with the looks and brains in the family - although true...its given him a big head! He knows he's good looking and smart...he was in the gifted and talented class and was voted the most eligible bachelor at school!
Is being a "pretty person" an excuse to be the way he is?
If i was blessed with the looks in the family, would have been that way too? I dont recall ever thinking that i could dump current_bf for potential_bf. I didn't think i would have a chance! Quite frankly the thought never crossed my mind! I had never dumped anyone for another person...which probably explains why the break ups weren't as bad as they could be...but still!
Okies...this is starting to sound like a whinge-fest...i should stop now...
If my brother ever reads this, know that i love you but u can be a conceded bastard sometimes and its moments like these that i worry about what you will turn out to be. I thought you were better than those player guys that hurt girls feelings! But from the example you have just shown me, i dont know...ur acting like a playboy, just because you can!
=(
Monday, December 22, 2003
The end is flying by...
My friend and i are going to Melb.
We'll be staying at my Cuz's place and we'll be celebrating the New Year there too!
I have really boring NYE, year after year...sometimes its with friends bumming at someone's house or im just at home sleeping and then waking 10 to midnite and watching the fireworks on the tv. Since this year it is in Melb, should i hope that it will be better? More interesting? Frankly...im not expecting much. My expectations always seem to get shot down, pretty fast too. So its better not to expect anything at all.
This year has been really eventful for me and honestly...i dont think i would want anything changed.
I'm a firm believer in never regretting anything in my life, and i dont regret! Everything i have done this year was fun and it didnt result in anything negative...its been a hoot! =D
Lets hope that 2004 will be as glorious as 2003...good health...great wealth...and eternal happiness to all!
We'll be staying at my Cuz's place and we'll be celebrating the New Year there too!
I have really boring NYE, year after year...sometimes its with friends bumming at someone's house or im just at home sleeping and then waking 10 to midnite and watching the fireworks on the tv. Since this year it is in Melb, should i hope that it will be better? More interesting? Frankly...im not expecting much. My expectations always seem to get shot down, pretty fast too. So its better not to expect anything at all.
This year has been really eventful for me and honestly...i dont think i would want anything changed.
I'm a firm believer in never regretting anything in my life, and i dont regret! Everything i have done this year was fun and it didnt result in anything negative...its been a hoot! =D
Lets hope that 2004 will be as glorious as 2003...good health...great wealth...and eternal happiness to all!
Mum's set up...
I go to dinner with my family and what do u think happens?
She drags me around the local club that we are having dinner at and introduces me to all these single guys!
Not that i have a problem with being introduced to some single guys (who happen to be quite attractive)...but being introduced by my mother...it just seems odd! I love my mum...but i derno...i dont think she should be the one introducing me to these guys...like i cant get a guy myself. (Which may be true at the moment considering that i cant seem to even find a guy to perve on).
But that aside, she introduced me to this one guy who i thought was quite cute...ino she has a thing for him...like an inkling for him to be her future son-in-law, cos she talks about him whenever she sees him and she is always selling him to me the day after. "He is so well mannered...he is a really good person...he is a funny boy...his parents are really good, teach their children really well...he does the same course as u...he is very tall, with beautiful blue eyes...yadda yadda yadda..."
Mum also has a hankering for me to marry someone with blue eyes...so we can have kids that are mixed! (She thinks half-casts are beautiful, and i agree). Although she knows that i dont want kids and that i dont plan to get married...i think thats still one of her fantasies...so the fact that she has managed to find a good looking guy with light brown hair and blue eyes that she happens think has a very good personality...she may think that her fantasy can become a reality!
So, last nite she introduced us to eachother...it was a brief chat and then i left to go home. This morning she said that he asked for my number so that we could be "friends"...her eyes sparkled as she said that. I know that she feels relieved that i'm graduating and now her next mission is to get me hitched...i mean since i have a stable job and all...in her mind the only thing im lacking at the moment is a partner!
Trust her to be so involved in my love life...even though its lacking at the moment!
She drags me around the local club that we are having dinner at and introduces me to all these single guys!
Not that i have a problem with being introduced to some single guys (who happen to be quite attractive)...but being introduced by my mother...it just seems odd! I love my mum...but i derno...i dont think she should be the one introducing me to these guys...like i cant get a guy myself. (Which may be true at the moment considering that i cant seem to even find a guy to perve on).
But that aside, she introduced me to this one guy who i thought was quite cute...ino she has a thing for him...like an inkling for him to be her future son-in-law, cos she talks about him whenever she sees him and she is always selling him to me the day after. "He is so well mannered...he is a really good person...he is a funny boy...his parents are really good, teach their children really well...he does the same course as u...he is very tall, with beautiful blue eyes...yadda yadda yadda..."
Mum also has a hankering for me to marry someone with blue eyes...so we can have kids that are mixed! (She thinks half-casts are beautiful, and i agree). Although she knows that i dont want kids and that i dont plan to get married...i think thats still one of her fantasies...so the fact that she has managed to find a good looking guy with light brown hair and blue eyes that she happens think has a very good personality...she may think that her fantasy can become a reality!
So, last nite she introduced us to eachother...it was a brief chat and then i left to go home. This morning she said that he asked for my number so that we could be "friends"...her eyes sparkled as she said that. I know that she feels relieved that i'm graduating and now her next mission is to get me hitched...i mean since i have a stable job and all...in her mind the only thing im lacking at the moment is a partner!
Trust her to be so involved in my love life...even though its lacking at the moment!
Friday, December 19, 2003
Previously...
It was about a year ago when we caught up at Wentworth at Uni.
He was talking about his new gf, and i was talking about my new bf.
He said to me:
"I was going to ask u out. I thought u looked pretty and i always felt good after talking to u."
I thought u were cute, i would have gone out with u if u had asked me to!
=P
hehehe
But oh well, were both taken now.
You with ur gf...and me with my bf...
He was talking about his new gf, and i was talking about my new bf.
He said to me:
"I was going to ask u out. I thought u looked pretty and i always felt good after talking to u."
I thought u were cute, i would have gone out with u if u had asked me to!
=P
hehehe
But oh well, were both taken now.
You with ur gf...and me with my bf...
The one that got away...
On the train this morning:
I thought i recognised u! But...woahhh!!! U've lost weight! I tried to look but wanted to avoid from looking like a guy checking you out!
hehehe
So, ur still with your gf?
Yep, a while now.
I didnt recognise u either, uve lost weight too...especially around the face.
Yeah, I've lost it around the face, but im getting a gut!
Too much beer drinking, eh?
hehehe
So, are u going to work?
Yeah, going to work.
Where are u working?
Walters.
Is that a construction company?
Yeah, i started about 4 months ago, as a cadet.
Woohoo...this is for your internship, right?
Yeah. Its been good too. Its such a good company. I wasnt going to say no. I mean they built the Centrepoint, Parliament House, the Hilton, like 80% of Sydney! When I was told that I got the job, I ran to uni and dropped all my subjects except one.
The one that you could pass with your eyes closed?
Yep! The one that I could b/s through! hahaha
***More talk about the job, how much the foreman was getting paid vs him. How much he would get if he graduated and became a Site Engineer. How his Project Manager gets $97 an hour and is only 36 y/o...etc.***
So, are you still with Phillip?
Do you mean my Ex?
Oh yeah, him...are you still with him?
No, we broke up a long time ago.
So, are u single then?
Yeah, there arent any guys out there.
Damn! (under his breath)
Even went shopping with my friend to find guys just to perve on...single or taken...just to look, and they seemed to have all disappeared! We went shopping on the Sunday that I found out that I was graduating...and there was no one!
Wait for me...just a couple of years...
I dont think ur gf would be happy to hear that!
hehehe
Hey ur stop...u dont want to miss it.
I thought i recognised u! But...woahhh!!! U've lost weight! I tried to look but wanted to avoid from looking like a guy checking you out!
hehehe
So, ur still with your gf?
Yep, a while now.
I didnt recognise u either, uve lost weight too...especially around the face.
Yeah, I've lost it around the face, but im getting a gut!
Too much beer drinking, eh?
hehehe
So, are u going to work?
Yeah, going to work.
Where are u working?
Walters.
Is that a construction company?
Yeah, i started about 4 months ago, as a cadet.
Woohoo...this is for your internship, right?
Yeah. Its been good too. Its such a good company. I wasnt going to say no. I mean they built the Centrepoint, Parliament House, the Hilton, like 80% of Sydney! When I was told that I got the job, I ran to uni and dropped all my subjects except one.
The one that you could pass with your eyes closed?
Yep! The one that I could b/s through! hahaha
***More talk about the job, how much the foreman was getting paid vs him. How much he would get if he graduated and became a Site Engineer. How his Project Manager gets $97 an hour and is only 36 y/o...etc.***
So, are you still with Phillip?
Do you mean my Ex?
Oh yeah, him...are you still with him?
No, we broke up a long time ago.
So, are u single then?
Yeah, there arent any guys out there.
Damn! (under his breath)
Even went shopping with my friend to find guys just to perve on...single or taken...just to look, and they seemed to have all disappeared! We went shopping on the Sunday that I found out that I was graduating...and there was no one!
Wait for me...just a couple of years...
I dont think ur gf would be happy to hear that!
hehehe
Hey ur stop...u dont want to miss it.
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
Rain on my parade...
I thought since i found out my final result and I will be graduating, that nothing would stop me from smiling!
I have been smiling ridiculously for a week and then i had an allergic reaction to my lunch on Tuesday last week...after lunch my mouth seemed to develop a rash on the side of my cheeks(inside the mouth) and by dinner, my tongue was swelling! The morning after...i opened my mouth and i could not see my throat!
I left from work a little early in the afternoon to see the doctor...and he said it has subsided and it was an allergic reaction from something i obviously ate! Come Thursday and i go through food poisoning...and all i can say is - i never want to go through that again! >_<
The last time i can remember being that sick was like when i was maybe 8 y/o. It was so horrid the feeling...which came in waves and subsided for a maximum of 30 minutes. And even when there was nothing left to up-chuck...my body still tried to throw something out!
My workmates were all teasing me, as they knew i was going through another detoxification. They were all jeering the next day: "You must be really cleansed now, hey?"
As i was lying on the living room couch...i actually started to think that it was the end. I felt that not only was there rain, but the storm was here and that because i can finally graduate, it was going to be taken away from me! *Melodramatic* But i did feel that way at the time.
I'm such a pansy!
I have been smiling ridiculously for a week and then i had an allergic reaction to my lunch on Tuesday last week...after lunch my mouth seemed to develop a rash on the side of my cheeks(inside the mouth) and by dinner, my tongue was swelling! The morning after...i opened my mouth and i could not see my throat!
I left from work a little early in the afternoon to see the doctor...and he said it has subsided and it was an allergic reaction from something i obviously ate! Come Thursday and i go through food poisoning...and all i can say is - i never want to go through that again! >_<
The last time i can remember being that sick was like when i was maybe 8 y/o. It was so horrid the feeling...which came in waves and subsided for a maximum of 30 minutes. And even when there was nothing left to up-chuck...my body still tried to throw something out!
My workmates were all teasing me, as they knew i was going through another detoxification. They were all jeering the next day: "You must be really cleansed now, hey?"
As i was lying on the living room couch...i actually started to think that it was the end. I felt that not only was there rain, but the storm was here and that because i can finally graduate, it was going to be taken away from me! *Melodramatic* But i did feel that way at the time.
I'm such a pansy!
Saturday, December 06, 2003
I hate you!
I try my very best to avoid you.
It actually hurts when i have to face you.
Its such hard work having to deal with you day in, day out.
Your so selfish.
Your so mean.
Stop calling me fat.
Stop making me cry!
Don't you understand that I have feelings too.
No, i'm not fragile...but that doesn't mean that i can constantly take every blow you sling at me and bounce right back.
I'm not supergirl - i wish i was...but thats another story in itself!
You see, you don't seem to notice the consequence of your hateful words.
Thankfully, i do have some inner strength - not a lot, just a little...and if i had allowed you to really influence me...i'd probably be struggling with multiple disorders by now! But i won't let you do that to me. Its not worth it!
So, what i want is for you to leave me alone! Go away, go bother someone else, banish yourself from the face of the Earth. Die if you have to, just leave me in peace. If you still persist in bothering me i can't guarantee that i can be civil with you anymore, i might have to resort in hurting you the same way you hurt me. Just stop it!
Oh, by the way, i just wanted to add : i hate you!
It actually hurts when i have to face you.
Its such hard work having to deal with you day in, day out.
Your so selfish.
Your so mean.
Stop calling me fat.
Stop making me cry!
Don't you understand that I have feelings too.
No, i'm not fragile...but that doesn't mean that i can constantly take every blow you sling at me and bounce right back.
I'm not supergirl - i wish i was...but thats another story in itself!
You see, you don't seem to notice the consequence of your hateful words.
Thankfully, i do have some inner strength - not a lot, just a little...and if i had allowed you to really influence me...i'd probably be struggling with multiple disorders by now! But i won't let you do that to me. Its not worth it!
So, what i want is for you to leave me alone! Go away, go bother someone else, banish yourself from the face of the Earth. Die if you have to, just leave me in peace. If you still persist in bothering me i can't guarantee that i can be civil with you anymore, i might have to resort in hurting you the same way you hurt me. Just stop it!
Oh, by the way, i just wanted to add : i hate you!
Monday, December 01, 2003
2nd Week
Its my second week at work.
Good note: Things are great...i drove to work today...i think i may in fact be driving every day from now on...People are lovely, and im being healthy...striving to look good for aunty's wedding on Xmas day!
Bad note: My work mate Wilson...he knows not only my travel agent...he also knows my Ex's family!
Enough said.
Good note: Things are great...i drove to work today...i think i may in fact be driving every day from now on...People are lovely, and im being healthy...striving to look good for aunty's wedding on Xmas day!
Bad note: My work mate Wilson...he knows not only my travel agent...he also knows my Ex's family!
Enough said.
Study, Holiday, Work!
I have been riding a tidal wave...
I had my final exam for Uni...and that was Tuesday 18th November 2003. It ended at 4pm in the afternoon. I rushed home to pack the last of my things into my hand-carry bag and zoomed to the airport to catch my flight to Thailand at 7pm. Got to the airport and the plane flew at 10pm.
I didnt sleep all nite...i napped for an hour but by the time i managed to get tired enough to catch some decent zzz's, we had reached Thailand and it was 5am Thai time...We stayed awake and went shopping! Next day we went on a day tour and we managed to still shop! I was completely stuffed on the second day. Buffet breakfast, buffet lunch, buffet dinner! At least the food was good! =D
Next day was more shopping...now today was more shopping for me: bags, shoes, bags, shoes, a pair of jeans here...more shoes, more bags, a top here...some stuf for my niece...more bags, more shoes...
I have to say, i have never enjoyed buying shoes more than ever...i mean who can argue with buying shoes that only cost u no more than $25 for the really nicest highest prettiest shoes! *LoL*
Average price for the shoes were like $8-15, same with the bags!
The hotel was great...centralised and close to shops...had great food...swimming pool...gym...nice staff...great masseurs - i recommend the oriental foot massage!
I plan to go back again...but for longer, and go to other countries while im at it!
=)
I got back on Sunday...it was 10:30pm when i got out from Sydney International...got home at about 11:10pm...went online - yes that was the first thing i did when i got home! Went online to check my train times so i would know what time to set my alarm to wake up the next day for work!
Yes, I had to go to work although i was sick and completely buggered...i soldiered on!
I went to work and they told me to take a half day, cos they were worried about me infecting others! *LoL* I am working in an airconditioned enclosed area that would spread my germs in seconds! So, the engineers were happy that i was there (so they could utilise their sick days) but the supervisor wanted me to get better, and not spread the germs....
So my first day at work was only a half day and i also took the next day off! hehehe...good start to a new job eh?
=P
I had my final exam for Uni...and that was Tuesday 18th November 2003. It ended at 4pm in the afternoon. I rushed home to pack the last of my things into my hand-carry bag and zoomed to the airport to catch my flight to Thailand at 7pm. Got to the airport and the plane flew at 10pm.
I didnt sleep all nite...i napped for an hour but by the time i managed to get tired enough to catch some decent zzz's, we had reached Thailand and it was 5am Thai time...We stayed awake and went shopping! Next day we went on a day tour and we managed to still shop! I was completely stuffed on the second day. Buffet breakfast, buffet lunch, buffet dinner! At least the food was good! =D
Next day was more shopping...now today was more shopping for me: bags, shoes, bags, shoes, a pair of jeans here...more shoes, more bags, a top here...some stuf for my niece...more bags, more shoes...
I have to say, i have never enjoyed buying shoes more than ever...i mean who can argue with buying shoes that only cost u no more than $25 for the really nicest highest prettiest shoes! *LoL*
Average price for the shoes were like $8-15, same with the bags!
The hotel was great...centralised and close to shops...had great food...swimming pool...gym...nice staff...great masseurs - i recommend the oriental foot massage!
I plan to go back again...but for longer, and go to other countries while im at it!
=)
I got back on Sunday...it was 10:30pm when i got out from Sydney International...got home at about 11:10pm...went online - yes that was the first thing i did when i got home! Went online to check my train times so i would know what time to set my alarm to wake up the next day for work!
Yes, I had to go to work although i was sick and completely buggered...i soldiered on!
I went to work and they told me to take a half day, cos they were worried about me infecting others! *LoL* I am working in an airconditioned enclosed area that would spread my germs in seconds! So, the engineers were happy that i was there (so they could utilise their sick days) but the supervisor wanted me to get better, and not spread the germs....
So my first day at work was only a half day and i also took the next day off! hehehe...good start to a new job eh?
=P
