i sleep well at nite.
i rarely recall any of my dreams.
i have a nice sleeping pattern.
i'm blessed, as once my head hits the pillow...i go into a deep slumber.
But this morning...i woke up from a dream.
it was about 5 in the morning.
The dream was of a guy that i use to crush on.
He asked me to the movies...but not like on a date.
It was like as a friend would ask u to go, to catch the latest flick...uno?
The crush asked me to catch the movie "Irreversible".
Highly out of the ordinary...
i really doubt that he would be interested in watching it.
He rambles on, about other movies we should catch...
Those art house kind of movies.
Very unlike him.
We get into a car.
He actually opened the door for me.
He gets in the driver seat...
And thats about it.
In a jolt i wake up...which is another odd thing, i rarely ever wake up with a jolt!
What i dont get, is why am i dreaming about a guy that i no longer like? Why do i recall a really mundane dream? Why did i wake up in a jolt? It wasnt like i was running really hard and some psycho was chasing me in my dreams...so right before the psycho catches me, i wake up in a jolt...uno what i mean?
Now that would make sense to me...
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
The Perfect Present
That was the title of Sex and the City last nite. I think it is meant to be read as "The Perfect Present". As in the present day, or present tense...not gift.
Carrie's current boyfriend - Jack Burger/Berger, previously went out with a lady who cheated on him. His reaction to a voice message from that lady on his answering machine was to give the double finger and a "Fudge You".
Okay, the Ex-file...the baggage...the decorator in their past...those emotions from the previous relationships that get dragged into the present relationship...the habits that u developed during ur past relationship that is brought into the present relationship...all those crappy things...How do u deal with it? Why isnt it dealt with before entering into another relationship? Why must the next person in ur life deal with it for ur ex?
I've been fortunate to have gone out with guys who i was their "first" real relationship...so there werent that many scars that needed healing, and the only baggage tended to be from their past crushes "that could have been"...dealing with those were headaches...i dont know what i would have done if i had to have dealt with an Ex.
I read a friends friend blog. The girl was basically wishing that she could punch her bf's ex for all the emotional crap that she as the current gf has to deal with now and more importantly, for the fact that her bf had loved the ex first.
Since, my track record is that of being first gf status, my assumption is that im the girl that all the future gf's of my ex will want to punch/kick/trip or just kill for the emotional baggage that they have to deal with. BUT i would like to think that i didnt leave my ex's in an emotional rollercoaster ride that they couldnt get off from. On the contrary...i still hold that all of my break ups have been neutral, yes it was hard at the time...but it wasnt nasty...and i still talk to all of my ex's. So, hopefully - no future gf will want to kick my arse.
IF anything, i hope they will turn around and thank me for grooming my ex's a touch, for moulding them a lil, making them adjusted to girly things and girly needs and girly wants.
That was Sex and the City...but in Queer Eye...They helped this guy, Ralph Sutton get ready for his blind date. Now Ralph is a DJ for a radio station by passion, but to make money to fuel the passion, he DJ's at a strip bar by nite. He says he doesnt want to work at the strip bar...so lets give him the benefit of the doubt here...
Basically, for his debut of some sorts...he does a live session for the radio station where he gets to interview a star from some rock band...he has brought his blind date along to this with his twin brother, that doesnt look like him one bit (obviously not identical), and twin bro's gf.
Blind date looks like she is having fun...while the guest and band rock on...afterwards we are shown a shot where Ralph is walking his date to the limo so she can be driven home...the crew from Queer Eye are divided on whats gonna happen after date #1...some think that the blind date may become more, ie a gf later on...while some think that it wont work out.
To me, obviously the girl would be appreciative of any guy who makes the effort to look good for the nite, who prepared something to eat - which turned out very edible, organises a limo as ur ride, speaks to u with respect and manners...u gotta be polite and friendly back towards them, right? I mean i would. I would also consider going out on a second date to really get a chance to know the guy better.
But if he wasnt my type, cos it was a blind date...i would still make it look like it was a great nite and that i really enjoyed his company. So that he wouldnt look bad, especially since i knew it was being taped...So i would make it look like there was a chance between the two of us. Deceptive...
So, whoever watched Queer Eye last nite, what do u think? Do u think rocker Ralph has a chance with the blind date? Do u think the blind date liked him? I think it was obvious that he liked the blind date...hehehe...All that smoothness talk about how his necklace came off...and the Queer Eye crew learnt a smooth move from Ralph...for those who missed it, Ralph said to the blind date that his necklace came off, and so she helped him put it back on - cos obviously he cant reach the clasp...ahahaha...and while he bent his head down so she could see the clasp he put his hand on her leg...
;)
*****
In between watching the shows i tried on this dress my mother was sewing for her boss...its a black strapless...very Audrey...its for Winter...its woollen and comes to mid-calf...with stilettos on...its like OMG...i didnt want to take it off! it fit like a glove and i was so ready to just go to the Opera House! hehehe...i think i found my dress to wear to Michael Buble! *^_^*
Carrie's current boyfriend - Jack Burger/Berger, previously went out with a lady who cheated on him. His reaction to a voice message from that lady on his answering machine was to give the double finger and a "Fudge You".
Okay, the Ex-file...the baggage...the decorator in their past...those emotions from the previous relationships that get dragged into the present relationship...the habits that u developed during ur past relationship that is brought into the present relationship...all those crappy things...How do u deal with it? Why isnt it dealt with before entering into another relationship? Why must the next person in ur life deal with it for ur ex?
I've been fortunate to have gone out with guys who i was their "first" real relationship...so there werent that many scars that needed healing, and the only baggage tended to be from their past crushes "that could have been"...dealing with those were headaches...i dont know what i would have done if i had to have dealt with an Ex.
I read a friends friend blog. The girl was basically wishing that she could punch her bf's ex for all the emotional crap that she as the current gf has to deal with now and more importantly, for the fact that her bf had loved the ex first.
Since, my track record is that of being first gf status, my assumption is that im the girl that all the future gf's of my ex will want to punch/kick/trip or just kill for the emotional baggage that they have to deal with. BUT i would like to think that i didnt leave my ex's in an emotional rollercoaster ride that they couldnt get off from. On the contrary...i still hold that all of my break ups have been neutral, yes it was hard at the time...but it wasnt nasty...and i still talk to all of my ex's. So, hopefully - no future gf will want to kick my arse.
IF anything, i hope they will turn around and thank me for grooming my ex's a touch, for moulding them a lil, making them adjusted to girly things and girly needs and girly wants.
That was Sex and the City...but in Queer Eye...They helped this guy, Ralph Sutton get ready for his blind date. Now Ralph is a DJ for a radio station by passion, but to make money to fuel the passion, he DJ's at a strip bar by nite. He says he doesnt want to work at the strip bar...so lets give him the benefit of the doubt here...
Basically, for his debut of some sorts...he does a live session for the radio station where he gets to interview a star from some rock band...he has brought his blind date along to this with his twin brother, that doesnt look like him one bit (obviously not identical), and twin bro's gf.
Blind date looks like she is having fun...while the guest and band rock on...afterwards we are shown a shot where Ralph is walking his date to the limo so she can be driven home...the crew from Queer Eye are divided on whats gonna happen after date #1...some think that the blind date may become more, ie a gf later on...while some think that it wont work out.
To me, obviously the girl would be appreciative of any guy who makes the effort to look good for the nite, who prepared something to eat - which turned out very edible, organises a limo as ur ride, speaks to u with respect and manners...u gotta be polite and friendly back towards them, right? I mean i would. I would also consider going out on a second date to really get a chance to know the guy better.
But if he wasnt my type, cos it was a blind date...i would still make it look like it was a great nite and that i really enjoyed his company. So that he wouldnt look bad, especially since i knew it was being taped...So i would make it look like there was a chance between the two of us. Deceptive...
So, whoever watched Queer Eye last nite, what do u think? Do u think rocker Ralph has a chance with the blind date? Do u think the blind date liked him? I think it was obvious that he liked the blind date...hehehe...All that smoothness talk about how his necklace came off...and the Queer Eye crew learnt a smooth move from Ralph...for those who missed it, Ralph said to the blind date that his necklace came off, and so she helped him put it back on - cos obviously he cant reach the clasp...ahahaha...and while he bent his head down so she could see the clasp he put his hand on her leg...
;)
In between watching the shows i tried on this dress my mother was sewing for her boss...its a black strapless...very Audrey...its for Winter...its woollen and comes to mid-calf...with stilettos on...its like OMG...i didnt want to take it off! it fit like a glove and i was so ready to just go to the Opera House! hehehe...i think i found my dress to wear to Michael Buble! *^_^*
Sunday, February 22, 2004
Be-Jewel-led, Bedazzled!
I forgot to mention the Jewel Concert in the Concert Hall at the Opera House on Friday nite...other than my sliding and falling on my fudging arse inside the Opera House (second time i have slid and landed on my butt - at least i didnt land on my face!), it was a beautiful experience.
I have never met a person so talented, humble, comedic, sweet, cherishable, utterly breathe taking like Jewel...she sang her songs with conviction...she was friendly and captured our attention with her antics about her past...she did a polka and yodelled a few times...she held high notes for longer than i could imagine and quite frankly i believe she could out do Mariah any day...she has this down to earth nature about her, that makes her mesmerising...
Acoustic never sounded so fabulous...i must admit the Concert Hall is an excellent venue and it most probably enhanced the whole experience...but thats not to say that Jewel isnt talented. This woman recorded her first song at the age of 19 y/o...only knowing how to play 4 chords at the time...she played that song while busking her way to Mexico and it was when she got to Mexico did she record that song..."Who will save your soul?"...
A decade has passed and look at her now...her voice still dazzling...her talent in entertaining still iridescent...i wasnt a huge fan of Jewel...but i now sure am...she did a slightly different version of "Stand"...and it was amazing...her talent is in versatility as much as it is in her vocals and lyrics.
Although her music was more subdued...the concert reminded me of Jason Mraz's last year at the Metro. Albeit, Mraz was more upbeat...but that flexibility, that change-ablility of style and movement in the songs...it just blew me away. I was on the edge of my seat while Jewel strummed her guitar...and sang her tunes.
I was a bit disappointed that she didn't pick up a bunch of flowers that a fan had set on the stage at the end of the performance...but then again she was in high platform shoes and a short denim mini!
=P
I have never met a person so talented, humble, comedic, sweet, cherishable, utterly breathe taking like Jewel...she sang her songs with conviction...she was friendly and captured our attention with her antics about her past...she did a polka and yodelled a few times...she held high notes for longer than i could imagine and quite frankly i believe she could out do Mariah any day...she has this down to earth nature about her, that makes her mesmerising...
Acoustic never sounded so fabulous...i must admit the Concert Hall is an excellent venue and it most probably enhanced the whole experience...but thats not to say that Jewel isnt talented. This woman recorded her first song at the age of 19 y/o...only knowing how to play 4 chords at the time...she played that song while busking her way to Mexico and it was when she got to Mexico did she record that song..."Who will save your soul?"...
A decade has passed and look at her now...her voice still dazzling...her talent in entertaining still iridescent...i wasnt a huge fan of Jewel...but i now sure am...she did a slightly different version of "Stand"...and it was amazing...her talent is in versatility as much as it is in her vocals and lyrics.
Although her music was more subdued...the concert reminded me of Jason Mraz's last year at the Metro. Albeit, Mraz was more upbeat...but that flexibility, that change-ablility of style and movement in the songs...it just blew me away. I was on the edge of my seat while Jewel strummed her guitar...and sang her tunes.
I was a bit disappointed that she didn't pick up a bunch of flowers that a fan had set on the stage at the end of the performance...but then again she was in high platform shoes and a short denim mini!
=P
Rodica's and Mars Hill Cafe...
I went to dinner with my girlfriends last nite at Rodica's on Church St, Parramatta. I had this mushroom risotto...it was so yum...the cheese...i salivate!
hehehheehe
We sat there while my best friend gave commentary to all her Contiki Europe fotos...she had so much fun. Somewhere along the line i noticed that she blossomed on the trip - Hooray! to her...i've been waiting for that day...hehehe...and she couldnt stop talking about the hot tour guide they had in Belgium - he was half English and German...he is a spunk and a half...but just not my type...kekeke...she has this awesome shot of him though...visuals always help!
=)
Apparently some guy friends from high school were gonna turn up too, although after the basketball game they went to watch at Homebush...so we sat at the restaurant until they came up to meet us.
A little side tracking here: My best friend...she went to my high school until year 10, and then she left and went to a selective school...so she has a second circle of friends...its sorta funny...she use to be worried that the two circles wouldnt mesh...but from example of last nite...i think its silly that she ever felt that way.
Two friends from her selective high school joined us at Mars Hill Cafe (also on Church St, just after Cold Rock Ice Creamery), a girl and a guy. The girl I have met a couple of times and to be honest, since we bump into each other at concerts all the time, we get along like a house on fire! She has promised to try and get me free tix for the Pete Murray concert (she has connections)...so i can sell my tix off to someone who wants to join us on that Saturday nite!
;)
Okay, back to the rest of the blog: So we go to Mars Hill...to me, its like an equilavent to Brown Sugar, the employees are all friendly and nice...relaxed and the atmosphere is so down to earth...*ahhh* The menu comes in the form of a little booklet in a CD case...hehehe...and they have the most funkiest coffee/non coffee drinks around. If u ever get the chance to pop in...I have been informed that u must try the "Celtic Grog" which comes in a funky chalice...be sure to stir it.
I had a drink called the "De-mint"...it usually comes in a coffee version...but since i dont drink coffee...they made me a non-coffee version...and it was yum-diddly-scrumptious. I like that sort of refreshing minty taste...and the drink i had was like an Iced Mint Slice (yes the Arnott's biscuit) and they actually pop a mint slice into the bottom of the drink, as well as some blended into the drink.
This cafe has an upstairs section, and my friend said that they usually hold poetry readings and live music. They have a camera in the upstairs facing the stage, which is shown live to the people down stairs. There is a game shelf, where u will find Taboo, Scrabble, Trivia Pursuit, cards, and some other games in which i cant remember...hehheehe
There is this separate small room with bean bags and a booth seat...thats where we went into first, cos there was a live band playing in the main upstairs area...it was cosy...we fit 15 ppl in it...but since yesterday was a stinking hot day, we all hussled out to the main upstairs area when the live performance ended! *LoL*
But while in that cosy room with lava lamps and all...we had a crack up for all times...I cant remember the last time i laughed-out-loud-so-hard-almost-peed-in-my-pants like that...the other times: would be at a cook out or in E's car while going somewhere like filming, dinner, Harry's, movies...etc.
Side tracking again: There was this time E was driving L and i to Harry's after a film shoot at Usyd...it was the famous "Kidney scene". As we drove to Harry's we must have been high on the craziness of that shoot...we just couldnt stop laughing...when we got to Harry's i think E nearly choked on his food...we get back into the car after eating and L closed the door on her jeans...(not noticing that she did)...so were driving along and we end up going for a joyride to the Cross, cos E wants to film some hookers on the streets. This is another insane part...E is like daring L to scream out "how much?" and obscene things like "i want pussy!"
She does this as any diligent partner in crime would, as it was nothing new to the both of them...but here i am witnessing it all over again, after a while of not hearing it...it would have probably been a good 6 months since we did a film session and grabbed a bite to eat like that...im in the back seat of the car pissing myself laughing and slouching in my seat as L is screaming the obscenities...
Then L tried to move her left leg but she realises that her jeans are caught in the car door...and she has been secretly trying to get her jeans free but has not managed to do so. Then E and i find out and were like "what are u doing?" E is like "u look like ur having a fit" and she tells him to stop the car without an explanation...and she opens the door to set her leg and jeans free...at this point E couldnt even drive properly and i was having an asthma attack (close to, not literally) cos i was laughing so hard.
Okay, it may not sound hilariously funny as i relay this to u now, u just had to be there, or know either E or L...actually just know E...and u would fully understand! ;)
Back to my review of Saturday nite...I had an awesome evening, last nite...great company and a lot of laughs...it has really surprised me that the guy friends from high school are now making the effort of keeping in touch. im taken aback and i really appreciate that effort! so cheers to them! =)
A friend who said he had a blast on Valentine's dinner/KoK...had asked me if i enjoyed myself at the group outing. and the truth is, I had more fun last nite than i did at Valentine's dinner. KoK was fun after dinner that nite, i enjoyed myself far more then dinner...but dinner itself wasnt so enjoyable as it could have been.
hehehheehe
We sat there while my best friend gave commentary to all her Contiki Europe fotos...she had so much fun. Somewhere along the line i noticed that she blossomed on the trip - Hooray! to her...i've been waiting for that day...hehehe...and she couldnt stop talking about the hot tour guide they had in Belgium - he was half English and German...he is a spunk and a half...but just not my type...kekeke...she has this awesome shot of him though...visuals always help!
=)
Apparently some guy friends from high school were gonna turn up too, although after the basketball game they went to watch at Homebush...so we sat at the restaurant until they came up to meet us.
A little side tracking here: My best friend...she went to my high school until year 10, and then she left and went to a selective school...so she has a second circle of friends...its sorta funny...she use to be worried that the two circles wouldnt mesh...but from example of last nite...i think its silly that she ever felt that way.
Two friends from her selective high school joined us at Mars Hill Cafe (also on Church St, just after Cold Rock Ice Creamery), a girl and a guy. The girl I have met a couple of times and to be honest, since we bump into each other at concerts all the time, we get along like a house on fire! She has promised to try and get me free tix for the Pete Murray concert (she has connections)...so i can sell my tix off to someone who wants to join us on that Saturday nite!
;)
Okay, back to the rest of the blog: So we go to Mars Hill...to me, its like an equilavent to Brown Sugar, the employees are all friendly and nice...relaxed and the atmosphere is so down to earth...*ahhh* The menu comes in the form of a little booklet in a CD case...hehehe...and they have the most funkiest coffee/non coffee drinks around. If u ever get the chance to pop in...I have been informed that u must try the "Celtic Grog" which comes in a funky chalice...be sure to stir it.
I had a drink called the "De-mint"...it usually comes in a coffee version...but since i dont drink coffee...they made me a non-coffee version...and it was yum-diddly-scrumptious. I like that sort of refreshing minty taste...and the drink i had was like an Iced Mint Slice (yes the Arnott's biscuit) and they actually pop a mint slice into the bottom of the drink, as well as some blended into the drink.
This cafe has an upstairs section, and my friend said that they usually hold poetry readings and live music. They have a camera in the upstairs facing the stage, which is shown live to the people down stairs. There is a game shelf, where u will find Taboo, Scrabble, Trivia Pursuit, cards, and some other games in which i cant remember...hehheehe
There is this separate small room with bean bags and a booth seat...thats where we went into first, cos there was a live band playing in the main upstairs area...it was cosy...we fit 15 ppl in it...but since yesterday was a stinking hot day, we all hussled out to the main upstairs area when the live performance ended! *LoL*
But while in that cosy room with lava lamps and all...we had a crack up for all times...I cant remember the last time i laughed-out-loud-so-hard-almost-peed-in-my-pants like that...the other times: would be at a cook out or in E's car while going somewhere like filming, dinner, Harry's, movies...etc.
Side tracking again: There was this time E was driving L and i to Harry's after a film shoot at Usyd...it was the famous "Kidney scene". As we drove to Harry's we must have been high on the craziness of that shoot...we just couldnt stop laughing...when we got to Harry's i think E nearly choked on his food...we get back into the car after eating and L closed the door on her jeans...(not noticing that she did)...so were driving along and we end up going for a joyride to the Cross, cos E wants to film some hookers on the streets. This is another insane part...E is like daring L to scream out "how much?" and obscene things like "i want pussy!"
She does this as any diligent partner in crime would, as it was nothing new to the both of them...but here i am witnessing it all over again, after a while of not hearing it...it would have probably been a good 6 months since we did a film session and grabbed a bite to eat like that...im in the back seat of the car pissing myself laughing and slouching in my seat as L is screaming the obscenities...
Then L tried to move her left leg but she realises that her jeans are caught in the car door...and she has been secretly trying to get her jeans free but has not managed to do so. Then E and i find out and were like "what are u doing?" E is like "u look like ur having a fit" and she tells him to stop the car without an explanation...and she opens the door to set her leg and jeans free...at this point E couldnt even drive properly and i was having an asthma attack (close to, not literally) cos i was laughing so hard.
Okay, it may not sound hilariously funny as i relay this to u now, u just had to be there, or know either E or L...actually just know E...and u would fully understand! ;)
Back to my review of Saturday nite...I had an awesome evening, last nite...great company and a lot of laughs...it has really surprised me that the guy friends from high school are now making the effort of keeping in touch. im taken aback and i really appreciate that effort! so cheers to them! =)
A friend who said he had a blast on Valentine's dinner/KoK...had asked me if i enjoyed myself at the group outing. and the truth is, I had more fun last nite than i did at Valentine's dinner. KoK was fun after dinner that nite, i enjoyed myself far more then dinner...but dinner itself wasnt so enjoyable as it could have been.
Thursday, February 19, 2004
No pain, no gain...
I did my first BodyPump class since a very long while now...under the suggestion that i should try it to change my routine by my personal trainer. Its a class that uses weights for resistance training...my trainer told me not to use anything heavier than 2.5 kilos...preferrably just 1 kilo weights...and so i did as i was told.
The raw deal is that ur body resistance should be enough to challenge your body if u do the lifts and lunges and reps correctly. To be honest, when i'm training in the weights area...i can lift a fair bit...but in the class while doing only 1 kilo or nothing at all, I am suffering for it now.
Walking down a flight of stairs today was basically cramping up my thighs...my shoulders and triceps and biceps are also tight. I guess i shouldnt complain...its a good pain
The raw deal is that ur body resistance should be enough to challenge your body if u do the lifts and lunges and reps correctly. To be honest, when i'm training in the weights area...i can lift a fair bit...but in the class while doing only 1 kilo or nothing at all, I am suffering for it now.
Walking down a flight of stairs today was basically cramping up my thighs...my shoulders and triceps and biceps are also tight. I guess i shouldnt complain...its a good pain
My day...
I'm playing receptionist again...today...I actually dont like it, because I'm not just playing receptionist for my own company, which would have been fun...But our building is shared by another company that our receptionist receptions for. So, in a nutshell...I need to look after another company that I have never dealt with.
Its a bit surreal...cos in essence, I feel like i have been demoted. Although, I shouldnt feel too bad about it. Our Contracts Manager had to play receptionist a few times before. I think my company is just too tight to afford a temp for a few days.
What happened to the receptionist? Well, she is getting ready for her wedding that will occur this Saturday. She wont be taking a long leave after the wedding though. She should be back next week...the honeymoon is arranged 2 or so weeks after the wedding. I hope at that situation, my department gets really busy and they cant do without me!!! (One of the engineers was complaining that he was too busy yesterday...hehehe...all working in my favour!)
Its a bit surreal...cos in essence, I feel like i have been demoted. Although, I shouldnt feel too bad about it. Our Contracts Manager had to play receptionist a few times before. I think my company is just too tight to afford a temp for a few days.
What happened to the receptionist? Well, she is getting ready for her wedding that will occur this Saturday. She wont be taking a long leave after the wedding though. She should be back next week...the honeymoon is arranged 2 or so weeks after the wedding. I hope at that situation, my department gets really busy and they cant do without me!!! (One of the engineers was complaining that he was too busy yesterday...hehehe...all working in my favour!)
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
The dog, the horse...
The dog asked the horse: "Big sister why did u leave me?"
The horse replied: "I never left you little sister, I just moved to live in another place."
The dog said: "But you did, you left me all alone and then there was no one to look out for me. My world got turned upside down..."
The horse replied: "I never left your side little sister."
The dog said: "Because you left me lonely my heart became weaker than ever before...my child was born just the same...and died just the same..."
The horse replied: "I know your heart broke, but I was always with you little sister."
The dog said: "It didn't feel like it and thats why I did what I did..."
The horse replied: "I know what you did, and why you did it little sister."
The dog said: "I thought it would make me feel better, and that it would bring me to you..."
The horse replied: "But I never left your side little sister..."
The dog said: "At least I am with my daughter now."
The horse replied: "Yes, at least your reunited with your daughter now."
My 8th Aunt on my mother's side died by an overdose of sleeping pills. For a very long time, I think my mother blamed herself for not "being there" for her little sister. But my mother was here in Australia, while my 8th Aunt was still in Vietnam. Sending money wasnt as easy as it is today, you had to do it through the banks and to actually claim the money in the other country, you had to show identification. Which is a pretty hard deal, since during the Vietnam war and even prior to that as well as after it, not many people had "birth certificates" or "passports" or "papers of citizenship" to prove who they were.
My 8th Aunt had a heart condition...she had a weak heart. My mother tells me of stories about how beautiful and delicate she was...she would walk by like a feather floating past you. You would not hear a step taken, nor would you even hear her breathe...probably because her breaths were shallow...due to the heart condition.
Her temperament was mild and cool...she had a patience that I only wished I had. I never got to meet my 8th Aunt. She died before I went back to visit my relatives.
She married a man without money...today he is quite well off as a hair dresser. Its weird, when I ment him, I didnt know that he was my uncle. And I thought my mother and he got along, but to my surprise my mother blamed him for my 8th Aunt's death. She shifted the blame from herself to him...it was more tangible that it would be his fault than hers...well in her eyes maybe...
She said that my 8th Aunt had just given birth to a beautiful baby girl, but that baby girl was also plagued by the same illness as her mother. Her breath was shallow, her eyes were as big as pools that later got covered by cataract which lead to blindness. When she cried all you heard was "em, em, em". And because the baby was weak in the heart, she was stayed in the hospital and so did her mother to recover from giving birth to the baby.
The father of the baby was apparently a complete prick! During a visit to the hospital...he didn't go and visit his wife...no...he went to visit the baby. Now, if you got this far into my blog, you're probably wondering what is so wrong with visiting the baby? Well, I dont know many who go and visit their baby while their wife is across the corridor and has complete view of the nursery, and yet you bring along a girlfriend and your wife catches you! Grrrr...
After the baby went blind...she grew weaker and weaker...i dont think my aunt would have provided the baby with enough milk, since she was so weak herself. Soon, the baby died.
I think my aunt's heart just contorted and distorted and did multiple spasms and she just got so angry with her husband that while she stayed in the hospital and the doctors provided sleeping pills for her, she saved every one of the pills until she had more than enough to OD on. But she didn't take them until her baby died...i think it was the last straw.
My mother says that my personality is like my 8th Aunt's. A perfectionist...quite a pompous arse actually...hehehe...quite methodological...but thankfully I wasnt born with heart complications. Even though she seemed cool, calm and collected, she wasnt a push over either...she was just fair.
I think thats the way my mother wants her to be remembered as.
The horse replied: "I never left you little sister, I just moved to live in another place."
The dog said: "But you did, you left me all alone and then there was no one to look out for me. My world got turned upside down..."
The horse replied: "I never left your side little sister."
The dog said: "Because you left me lonely my heart became weaker than ever before...my child was born just the same...and died just the same..."
The horse replied: "I know your heart broke, but I was always with you little sister."
The dog said: "It didn't feel like it and thats why I did what I did..."
The horse replied: "I know what you did, and why you did it little sister."
The dog said: "I thought it would make me feel better, and that it would bring me to you..."
The horse replied: "But I never left your side little sister..."
The dog said: "At least I am with my daughter now."
The horse replied: "Yes, at least your reunited with your daughter now."
My 8th Aunt on my mother's side died by an overdose of sleeping pills. For a very long time, I think my mother blamed herself for not "being there" for her little sister. But my mother was here in Australia, while my 8th Aunt was still in Vietnam. Sending money wasnt as easy as it is today, you had to do it through the banks and to actually claim the money in the other country, you had to show identification. Which is a pretty hard deal, since during the Vietnam war and even prior to that as well as after it, not many people had "birth certificates" or "passports" or "papers of citizenship" to prove who they were.
My 8th Aunt had a heart condition...she had a weak heart. My mother tells me of stories about how beautiful and delicate she was...she would walk by like a feather floating past you. You would not hear a step taken, nor would you even hear her breathe...probably because her breaths were shallow...due to the heart condition.
Her temperament was mild and cool...she had a patience that I only wished I had. I never got to meet my 8th Aunt. She died before I went back to visit my relatives.
She married a man without money...today he is quite well off as a hair dresser. Its weird, when I ment him, I didnt know that he was my uncle. And I thought my mother and he got along, but to my surprise my mother blamed him for my 8th Aunt's death. She shifted the blame from herself to him...it was more tangible that it would be his fault than hers...well in her eyes maybe...
She said that my 8th Aunt had just given birth to a beautiful baby girl, but that baby girl was also plagued by the same illness as her mother. Her breath was shallow, her eyes were as big as pools that later got covered by cataract which lead to blindness. When she cried all you heard was "em, em, em". And because the baby was weak in the heart, she was stayed in the hospital and so did her mother to recover from giving birth to the baby.
The father of the baby was apparently a complete prick! During a visit to the hospital...he didn't go and visit his wife...no...he went to visit the baby. Now, if you got this far into my blog, you're probably wondering what is so wrong with visiting the baby? Well, I dont know many who go and visit their baby while their wife is across the corridor and has complete view of the nursery, and yet you bring along a girlfriend and your wife catches you! Grrrr...
After the baby went blind...she grew weaker and weaker...i dont think my aunt would have provided the baby with enough milk, since she was so weak herself. Soon, the baby died.
I think my aunt's heart just contorted and distorted and did multiple spasms and she just got so angry with her husband that while she stayed in the hospital and the doctors provided sleeping pills for her, she saved every one of the pills until she had more than enough to OD on. But she didn't take them until her baby died...i think it was the last straw.
My mother says that my personality is like my 8th Aunt's. A perfectionist...quite a pompous arse actually...hehehe...quite methodological...but thankfully I wasnt born with heart complications. Even though she seemed cool, calm and collected, she wasnt a push over either...she was just fair.
I think thats the way my mother wants her to be remembered as.
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
When bored...do more tests!
Who You Are? ...You're a hidden artist...
You're a woman with a very balanced personality and lifestyle. You believe in making room in life to relax, think, and have fun. You refuse to settle long-term for a boring job or doing something just because it's expected of you. Love is the same way. You know what real love feels like and you'll accept no imitations! You pride yourself on not being the "typical woman." You're more honest and straightforward than most women. But just because you don't "wear your heart on your sleeve" doesn't mean you lack deep feelings. In fact, you're deeply committed to your loved ones and the causes you believe in. Women as truly balanced as you are very rare.
Yes im a rarity with her head screwed in trying to make some sense of her life... Yes that is i...very balanced i see...
Who You're Looking For? ...He'll be an enigma...
You're looking for a very balanced man. He'll have clear goals in life and dreams he hopes to pursue while still being practical about the realities of life. He also manages to balance a clear rational side with a more compassionate and caring side. Given his charm and down-to-earth nature, it won't be surprising that he has a wide network of friends. He'll constantly be juggling things in his life, but will still find a place for you. Sound too good to be true? Men who are truly balanced like this are rare, but they do exist and would be an excellent fit for you.
...hmm...they may have hit the nail right on the head...the guy im after is a rare commodity...
I think i shall stop doing these tests...makes me more confused with my life and what direction i want to take it...*ugh*.
You're a woman with a very balanced personality and lifestyle. You believe in making room in life to relax, think, and have fun. You refuse to settle long-term for a boring job or doing something just because it's expected of you. Love is the same way. You know what real love feels like and you'll accept no imitations! You pride yourself on not being the "typical woman." You're more honest and straightforward than most women. But just because you don't "wear your heart on your sleeve" doesn't mean you lack deep feelings. In fact, you're deeply committed to your loved ones and the causes you believe in. Women as truly balanced as you are very rare.
Yes im a rarity with her head screwed in trying to make some sense of her life... Yes that is i...very balanced i see...
Who You're Looking For? ...He'll be an enigma...
You're looking for a very balanced man. He'll have clear goals in life and dreams he hopes to pursue while still being practical about the realities of life. He also manages to balance a clear rational side with a more compassionate and caring side. Given his charm and down-to-earth nature, it won't be surprising that he has a wide network of friends. He'll constantly be juggling things in his life, but will still find a place for you. Sound too good to be true? Men who are truly balanced like this are rare, but they do exist and would be an excellent fit for you.
...hmm...they may have hit the nail right on the head...the guy im after is a rare commodity...
I think i shall stop doing these tests...makes me more confused with my life and what direction i want to take it...*ugh*.
Friday, February 13, 2004
Slangish 101
Some terms have been popping up in my life...either in reference to me or in reference to someone else...their origins are from either my philosophy or situations that we have been in...hope this makes sense to everyone else...
Pursue Me Time - This is the time in which u get to know someone and u can "actively pursue" the person. But u must remember, there is only a certain amount of time in which u can pursue the person before the time turns into "u are just a friend to me now and i wouldnt want to jeopardise our friendship". The "pursue me time" varies depending on the individual...but as a rule of thumb...well personally to me...it is usually about 3 months maybe longer depending on the guy. The reason why the time changes from "u can show interest in me, we can be more than friends" to "we are just friends" occurs (for me personally again), due to the lack of interest shown by the other party. So, as a result...i become resolved to being just a friend to them.
Often used in reference as so: "So, has 'so&so' past his pursue me time yet?"
Pursuable - This is a person who is worth pursuing and is worth giving some "pursue me time" to. A person that strikes an interest. A person that appeals to your eye. A person that u think is interested in u! hehehe... Pursuable may be used in reference to someone that u want to pursue u. Or the reverse, someone u are chasing after.
This is often used in a statement like: "Yeah he is really fun to talk to, very pursuable!"
Crush Slut - This is a person that is crushing on multiple people or chopping and changing between crushes. To avoid being a "crush slut" u must have a grievance period between each crush to severe all ties. Out of respect for your own dignity and esteem...u must refrain from crushing on one person straight after u decide another crush is not worth ur time. Also, if ur doing multiple crushes...ur in over ur head! Just give up now...how do u ever conclude that u will gain any success by crushing on more than one person?! Your energies are dispersing between multiple people, when u really need to focus on one person at any given time!
Most often heard like: "Oh my gosh she is such a crush slut...going from Mike to Peter to Andrew...now she is crush-slutting with Andrew and Jeremy!"
Pursue Me Time - This is the time in which u get to know someone and u can "actively pursue" the person. But u must remember, there is only a certain amount of time in which u can pursue the person before the time turns into "u are just a friend to me now and i wouldnt want to jeopardise our friendship". The "pursue me time" varies depending on the individual...but as a rule of thumb...well personally to me...it is usually about 3 months maybe longer depending on the guy. The reason why the time changes from "u can show interest in me, we can be more than friends" to "we are just friends" occurs (for me personally again), due to the lack of interest shown by the other party. So, as a result...i become resolved to being just a friend to them.
Often used in reference as so: "So, has 'so&so' past his pursue me time yet?"
Pursuable - This is a person who is worth pursuing and is worth giving some "pursue me time" to. A person that strikes an interest. A person that appeals to your eye. A person that u think is interested in u! hehehe... Pursuable may be used in reference to someone that u want to pursue u. Or the reverse, someone u are chasing after.
This is often used in a statement like: "Yeah he is really fun to talk to, very pursuable!"
Crush Slut - This is a person that is crushing on multiple people or chopping and changing between crushes. To avoid being a "crush slut" u must have a grievance period between each crush to severe all ties. Out of respect for your own dignity and esteem...u must refrain from crushing on one person straight after u decide another crush is not worth ur time. Also, if ur doing multiple crushes...ur in over ur head! Just give up now...how do u ever conclude that u will gain any success by crushing on more than one person?! Your energies are dispersing between multiple people, when u really need to focus on one person at any given time!
Most often heard like: "Oh my gosh she is such a crush slut...going from Mike to Peter to Andrew...now she is crush-slutting with Andrew and Jeremy!"
Are You Picky?
Go here: Physical Attraction Test and find out whether u are picky or not...just for fun! ;)
In my report, they ask:
What Is Your Approach to Judging Which Men Are Handsome or Very Attractive?
Picky: Okay, you qualify as "picky," or maybe you just have a clearer idea than most women about what you like in men. It's almost instinctual for you. In a crowded room, you can quickly spot the most handsome guy. Even if you only catch him out of the corner of your eye, you know which men have "the right stuff." You probably struggle with balancing your natural instincts, which draw you to good looking guys, with your desire to find smart, mature, and well-rounded men. But you're also a realist. You know how important a physical "spark" is in a relationship and can't settle for less. Still, in the test, you seemed to recognize the difference between "eye candy," men who are just nice to look at, and more approachable cute guys.
I think that explains it...ino what i want and im not accepting second best, so this is why im still single! =P
AHAHaahaHAHAHaha...eye candy...
In my report, they ask:
What Is Your Approach to Judging Which Men Are Handsome or Very Attractive?
Picky: Okay, you qualify as "picky," or maybe you just have a clearer idea than most women about what you like in men. It's almost instinctual for you. In a crowded room, you can quickly spot the most handsome guy. Even if you only catch him out of the corner of your eye, you know which men have "the right stuff." You probably struggle with balancing your natural instincts, which draw you to good looking guys, with your desire to find smart, mature, and well-rounded men. But you're also a realist. You know how important a physical "spark" is in a relationship and can't settle for less. Still, in the test, you seemed to recognize the difference between "eye candy," men who are just nice to look at, and more approachable cute guys.
I think that explains it...ino what i want and im not accepting second best, so this is why im still single! =P
AHAHaahaHAHAHaha...eye candy...
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
My Little Star...
No one taught her...and when she gets into the mood she just starts belting out the tune...
"If you...could see...what i seeeeeee..."
She repeats those words over and over and over...until in her mind the song has concluded.
It is soo adorable...mind you it doesnt quite sound correct, but she mummbles the correct tune and u can tell what song she is singing. hehehe
My niece is like 2.5 y/o...and Guy Sebastian's #1 song isnt her favourite song...but since it has been played all over the country, and she hears it on the radio...and on the tv...she's picked it up!
I never knew the thrills of hearing a lil voice singing a "big" persons song...or any song with their squeaky lil voice...hehehee...after "Angel's brought me here" she starts singing the ABC's...i record her with my mobile...but there is no way for me to transfer it on to the comp...well i dont think i can...I use to think that my friend was a weirdo when she got excited about hearing her niece or nephew sing something down the phone to her cos they live across the ocean...
But now i get it...its the utmost cutest sound you could ever hear! And i dont think its a maternal instinct sorta thing in which that cute sound strikes a chord with...its just honey syrupy cute...(and i dont have a maternal bone in me, so it cant be a maternal thing)!
"If you...could see...what i seeeeeee..."
She repeats those words over and over and over...until in her mind the song has concluded.
It is soo adorable...mind you it doesnt quite sound correct, but she mummbles the correct tune and u can tell what song she is singing. hehehe
My niece is like 2.5 y/o...and Guy Sebastian's #1 song isnt her favourite song...but since it has been played all over the country, and she hears it on the radio...and on the tv...she's picked it up!
I never knew the thrills of hearing a lil voice singing a "big" persons song...or any song with their squeaky lil voice...hehehee...after "Angel's brought me here" she starts singing the ABC's...i record her with my mobile...but there is no way for me to transfer it on to the comp...well i dont think i can...I use to think that my friend was a weirdo when she got excited about hearing her niece or nephew sing something down the phone to her cos they live across the ocean...
But now i get it...its the utmost cutest sound you could ever hear! And i dont think its a maternal instinct sorta thing in which that cute sound strikes a chord with...its just honey syrupy cute...(and i dont have a maternal bone in me, so it cant be a maternal thing)!
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
Travel Bug!
My best friend got back to Sydney on Saturday (07-02-2004) from her Europe trip that lasted for 5 weeks. She had an awesome time even though she was freezing her butt off. She also put on weight, which is the opposite to what she thought would happen. But i did tell her that her sister was not the type to be stringent on money for food. All the 3 course dinners (part of her package), all the cheese, all the alcohol, all the chocolates...hehehe...luckily for her, she is tall and has a slender frame and the weight will just give her curves!
Another friend just completed a 3 week road trip of the East Australian Coast. The highlight of her trip was the white water rafting expedition she went on. She drove and alternated with her bf. I just spoke to her today - she isnt too happy about being back to work. I had mentioned to her that my best friend and I will do a Europe trip in about 1.5-2 years from now, but it will be Europe in Summer, not Winter. Cos we want to incorporate the Greek Islands. She is utterly itching to go, but her excuse "not to" was soo cute!
Her and her bf are saving for a house...mind you they are not engaged or anything. They are the same age as i am. We all went to high school together.
Their story began when he wrote a love letter to her in Year 7. He gave her the letter and she read it, and she did the most sensible thing. She spoke to him and told him that she was too young to be "together" with anyone, but that she valued him as a friend. Throughout high school, he was always there as her "friend". Once in a while, he gave her something to show her that he cared about her...but to ease any tensions the poor guy had to get something for us, her friends...hehehe...but her's was always the best or most special! It wasn't until after high school did they get together. When the HSC was completed my friend no longer had any excuse to say "no". And they have been together since their first date, which was a week after the HSC. I think this is a demonstration that persistance pays off! hehehe
My travel agent called me last nite to inform me of cheap tix to the Gold Coast...i got two other people to join me and when i got to work today, i made a tentative booking for a studio apartment directly across from Sea World. Called my travel agent to give her the names of the people who confirmed 100% sure that they were going to go. I sit and wait. She calls back to say that the tix sold out! -_-"
I was devastated...it was so hyped...and my manager gave me approval to take a days leave. Ive never been to the good ol sunshine coast! I was going to go with people who wanted to go on the theme rides...and do all those silly things with me! And now? bummer! =( But i shall be going to do some scuba diving locally on the weekend i should have gone to the Gold Coast! hehehe hopefully that isnt booked out!
Its bad when u have a travel agent that calls you at home to tell you of special deals! The feet starts itching...
Another friend just completed a 3 week road trip of the East Australian Coast. The highlight of her trip was the white water rafting expedition she went on. She drove and alternated with her bf. I just spoke to her today - she isnt too happy about being back to work. I had mentioned to her that my best friend and I will do a Europe trip in about 1.5-2 years from now, but it will be Europe in Summer, not Winter. Cos we want to incorporate the Greek Islands. She is utterly itching to go, but her excuse "not to" was soo cute!
Her and her bf are saving for a house...mind you they are not engaged or anything. They are the same age as i am. We all went to high school together.
Their story began when he wrote a love letter to her in Year 7. He gave her the letter and she read it, and she did the most sensible thing. She spoke to him and told him that she was too young to be "together" with anyone, but that she valued him as a friend. Throughout high school, he was always there as her "friend". Once in a while, he gave her something to show her that he cared about her...but to ease any tensions the poor guy had to get something for us, her friends...hehehe...but her's was always the best or most special! It wasn't until after high school did they get together. When the HSC was completed my friend no longer had any excuse to say "no". And they have been together since their first date, which was a week after the HSC. I think this is a demonstration that persistance pays off! hehehe
My travel agent called me last nite to inform me of cheap tix to the Gold Coast...i got two other people to join me and when i got to work today, i made a tentative booking for a studio apartment directly across from Sea World. Called my travel agent to give her the names of the people who confirmed 100% sure that they were going to go. I sit and wait. She calls back to say that the tix sold out! -_-"
I was devastated...it was so hyped...and my manager gave me approval to take a days leave. Ive never been to the good ol sunshine coast! I was going to go with people who wanted to go on the theme rides...and do all those silly things with me! And now? bummer! =( But i shall be going to do some scuba diving locally on the weekend i should have gone to the Gold Coast! hehehe hopefully that isnt booked out!
Its bad when u have a travel agent that calls you at home to tell you of special deals! The feet starts itching...
Sunday, February 08, 2004
In the spirit of St V'Day...
That bear up there, is a bear i bought for myself on the first day of Feb...i went shopping with my mother and saw the bear in GB's...its fur is sooo soft and on its bottom...there is a little pocket where his heart is kept! hehehe...its soo cute...SO i bought him for moi! ;)
But as the title for this blog says...here is a WANTED ad:
WANTED - male aged 23-30 y/o, able to be on-call on weekends. Lurves jazz and all kinds of music. Enjoys trying new things and does not believe that doing "cultural" things = gay! Must be exceptional in giving and receiving hugs, and dropping compliments once in a blue moon. Ablilty to communicate and skills in relaying humourous witty jokes will be highly regarded! Required to meet the following criteria: height = >1.75m, has broad shoulders, is spontaneous and versatile, has nice smile, willingness to have fun. Does not pout lips.
Attractive package for successful applicant.
Interested applicants may apply by dropping a msg in the commenting section of this blog.
Hahaha!
^_^
Have a good laugh!
But as the title for this blog says...here is a WANTED ad:
WANTED - male aged 23-30 y/o, able to be on-call on weekends. Lurves jazz and all kinds of music. Enjoys trying new things and does not believe that doing "cultural" things = gay! Must be exceptional in giving and receiving hugs, and dropping compliments once in a blue moon. Ablilty to communicate and skills in relaying humourous witty jokes will be highly regarded! Required to meet the following criteria: height = >1.75m, has broad shoulders, is spontaneous and versatile, has nice smile, willingness to have fun. Does not pout lips.
Attractive package for successful applicant.
Interested applicants may apply by dropping a msg in the commenting section of this blog.
Hahaha!
^_^
Have a good laugh!
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Grossly Overrated...
I dont know what inspired that title...but i like it, so im using it for this entry! ahahaha
^_^
Now that i got that off my chest, im sorta sitting on a blank.
Damn!
I got disrupted while writing this entry...for about an hour...one of the websites wasnt working...IT Manager was in trying to fix it. She is a new manager, its only her 2nd day here...she seems nice...but Harry was more talkative! I'll give her 1 month to settle a little and see how her personality goes from there.
After waiting for files to timeout and resetting passwords and deleting stuff in the cache...the site is up again.
Gee this blog is heading for boredsville...im bored just reading what has been written!
Hmm...let me try to spruce this up a little...
My workmate is really inconsiderate, or extremely pathetic!!!
I have a stack of postit notes on my desk next to my keyboard. On the top page was an important customer's details and the correct contact that i need to speak to. Luckily, im methodological and i wrote all that was on the postit in a comment for this customer's job. The workmate (the bastard) for some reason during my lunch break, took my postit notes and tore that front page off, threw it in the bin, continued to use my postits and kept it on his desk!
Now common sense, if your going to borrow something of someone's...u dont throw things away without consulting them. Albeit, i wasnt in the office, but its a postit note...with writing on it. Normally you would take the top note off, the one with writing and stick it to my monitor? or to my keyboard? or to my desk? to my speakers? to my phone? to anything that u can stick it on!!! AND when i come back in after my lunch - ask me if it was something i needed, and either give the note back to me, or show me where u stuck it.
YOU DO NOT GO AND THROW SOMETHING THAT DOES NOT BELONG TO YOU INTO THE BIN!!!
Apparently, leaving someone's belonging alone does not apply here with that particular workmate.
I was flabbergasted. I wanted to scream at him and rip his head off! When i asked who had taken my postit notes? He held it up and asked "is this yours?" I'm thinking: "Well, shouldnt U know if U took it off my bloody fudgin desk???" I asked where the top page was, as it had an important number written on it? He looked at me and said that it was in the bin!!! He sort of pretended to look through the bin, but he didnt reproduce the postit...FUDGE!
I quickly took the rest back and sat down turned my back to him - cos my desk is slanted away from him anyways...had i said something then and there, i would have really tore his head off!
He goes to the stationary cupboard and grabs another stack! I'm thinking: "Why didnt he do that in the FUDGING first place???" What an idiot! He sits there complaining about a job i resolved for him, cos the Optus girl called to give us an update! She wasnt even asking him any questions and he turned to our manager asking about the job i just resolved and clearly said it was closed now!!! I turned to him and said "So, what exactly does she want to know? I just spoke to the site contact (in which he threw out the number of) and he confirmed that the service was now fine?" I told him, look transfer the phone call to me and i'll speak to her...he is still trying to speak to my manager about it, and my manager who i informed that the problem was fixed was telling him that i closed the job...i ask him again to transfer the call to me and ill talk to the Optus person...i say this about another 2 times and then he transfers the call to me!
All she wanted to say to us, was that the fault is fixed. Service is back up. I told her - "I spoke to site contact, he confirmed that with me already!" So, she was like "Great, lets close the job then!" And we both close it on both ends. I dont know where all the complication came from. The Optus girl speaks fluent english...i've never had trouble understanding what she has tried to convey...i think the workmate has terrible communication skills and he misinterprets a lot of things.
There were other "incidents" that happened. *snicker snarl snort* *grrrr*
Thankfully, i wont see him until a month has passed! WooHoo to the rotating roster!!!
^_^
Now that i got that off my chest, im sorta sitting on a blank.
Damn!
I got disrupted while writing this entry...for about an hour...one of the websites wasnt working...IT Manager was in trying to fix it. She is a new manager, its only her 2nd day here...she seems nice...but Harry was more talkative! I'll give her 1 month to settle a little and see how her personality goes from there.
After waiting for files to timeout and resetting passwords and deleting stuff in the cache...the site is up again.
Gee this blog is heading for boredsville...im bored just reading what has been written!
Hmm...let me try to spruce this up a little...
My workmate is really inconsiderate, or extremely pathetic!!!
I have a stack of postit notes on my desk next to my keyboard. On the top page was an important customer's details and the correct contact that i need to speak to. Luckily, im methodological and i wrote all that was on the postit in a comment for this customer's job. The workmate (the bastard) for some reason during my lunch break, took my postit notes and tore that front page off, threw it in the bin, continued to use my postits and kept it on his desk!
Now common sense, if your going to borrow something of someone's...u dont throw things away without consulting them. Albeit, i wasnt in the office, but its a postit note...with writing on it. Normally you would take the top note off, the one with writing and stick it to my monitor? or to my keyboard? or to my desk? to my speakers? to my phone? to anything that u can stick it on!!! AND when i come back in after my lunch - ask me if it was something i needed, and either give the note back to me, or show me where u stuck it.
YOU DO NOT GO AND THROW SOMETHING THAT DOES NOT BELONG TO YOU INTO THE BIN!!!
Apparently, leaving someone's belonging alone does not apply here with that particular workmate.
I was flabbergasted. I wanted to scream at him and rip his head off! When i asked who had taken my postit notes? He held it up and asked "is this yours?" I'm thinking: "Well, shouldnt U know if U took it off my bloody fudgin desk???" I asked where the top page was, as it had an important number written on it? He looked at me and said that it was in the bin!!! He sort of pretended to look through the bin, but he didnt reproduce the postit...FUDGE!
I quickly took the rest back and sat down turned my back to him - cos my desk is slanted away from him anyways...had i said something then and there, i would have really tore his head off!
He goes to the stationary cupboard and grabs another stack! I'm thinking: "Why didnt he do that in the FUDGING first place???" What an idiot! He sits there complaining about a job i resolved for him, cos the Optus girl called to give us an update! She wasnt even asking him any questions and he turned to our manager asking about the job i just resolved and clearly said it was closed now!!! I turned to him and said "So, what exactly does she want to know? I just spoke to the site contact (in which he threw out the number of) and he confirmed that the service was now fine?" I told him, look transfer the phone call to me and i'll speak to her...he is still trying to speak to my manager about it, and my manager who i informed that the problem was fixed was telling him that i closed the job...i ask him again to transfer the call to me and ill talk to the Optus person...i say this about another 2 times and then he transfers the call to me!
All she wanted to say to us, was that the fault is fixed. Service is back up. I told her - "I spoke to site contact, he confirmed that with me already!" So, she was like "Great, lets close the job then!" And we both close it on both ends. I dont know where all the complication came from. The Optus girl speaks fluent english...i've never had trouble understanding what she has tried to convey...i think the workmate has terrible communication skills and he misinterprets a lot of things.
There were other "incidents" that happened. *snicker snarl snort* *grrrr*
Thankfully, i wont see him until a month has passed! WooHoo to the rotating roster!!!
Monday, February 02, 2004
How do you deal with it?
We all deal with stress differently. Some people smoke excessively, some obsessively eat everything they see, some choose to starve themselves, while others drink themselves to a stupor. But what quirky things do others partake in to keep themselves distracted from stress or anything else that is bothering them?
I have some weird eccentricities.
During my HSC, to deal with the competition amongst peers and the stress of getting a really high UAI, I would manicure my nails and then paint them. But it has to be immaculate or else i would take it all off and start all over again. I think it was a matter of having something perfect in front of me so that i could focus on it and then emulate that perfection.
Prior to that i was a compulsive & impulsive shopaholic. I would shop every weekend to "deal with it". It was just crazy and utterly expensive when i would buy things i didnt need, but i just had to buy something to "relieve" my stress. It was probably like a drug-like fix. But since i have never taken drugs...i wouldnt really be able to compare...so i'll shut up now on that!
During my uni days, right b4 my exams i had to make a trip to Officeworks and walk down the aisle and buy a heap of stationary to calm my nerves and make myself feel "stationarily" prepared to deal with my exams. I think i would have passed out in the process if i didn't have the correct pens to use during the exam! But since i went to shop for it during Week 14 of uni (no labs, no lecture week) - i would be perfectly prepared with the right pens.
It may sound utterly crazy, but those were the things i use to do to make myself feel better, or be better equipped to deal with the stress of life. I'm pretty sure that other people have their own "things" that they do. Not sure if anyone is prepared to admit them though...or mayb i am the only weirdo out there - but that would explain a lot of things! *LoL*
I bring this topic up, cos i went to a nail salon to get a "reshape" and "french manicure" done on Australia day, but to be honest, she ended up doing what i use to do for myself and i was disappointed cos she didnt really reshape my nails. I ended up getting something i could have done on my own. It started chipping over the weekend, so i took the polish off and did my own nails again. There is something gratifyingly soothing in buffing my own nails...and naturally girly about it. It reminded me of my odd ways, and the fact that i use to annoy my brother so much because he hated the smell of enamel and more so of the nail polish remover! hahaha
He use to try to ignore the smell, because he knew that it was my way of "dealing" with my studies and stress. I think he was relieved when i started going to Officeworks to pick up stationary. I mean he dealt with the liquid paper/white out pretty well, better than the polish and remover! And paper just smells fresh if there is a fragrance at all. (Unless you deliberately buy perfumed paper!)
So, how do you deal with it???
I have some weird eccentricities.
During my HSC, to deal with the competition amongst peers and the stress of getting a really high UAI, I would manicure my nails and then paint them. But it has to be immaculate or else i would take it all off and start all over again. I think it was a matter of having something perfect in front of me so that i could focus on it and then emulate that perfection.
Prior to that i was a compulsive & impulsive shopaholic. I would shop every weekend to "deal with it". It was just crazy and utterly expensive when i would buy things i didnt need, but i just had to buy something to "relieve" my stress. It was probably like a drug-like fix. But since i have never taken drugs...i wouldnt really be able to compare...so i'll shut up now on that!
During my uni days, right b4 my exams i had to make a trip to Officeworks and walk down the aisle and buy a heap of stationary to calm my nerves and make myself feel "stationarily" prepared to deal with my exams. I think i would have passed out in the process if i didn't have the correct pens to use during the exam! But since i went to shop for it during Week 14 of uni (no labs, no lecture week) - i would be perfectly prepared with the right pens.
It may sound utterly crazy, but those were the things i use to do to make myself feel better, or be better equipped to deal with the stress of life. I'm pretty sure that other people have their own "things" that they do. Not sure if anyone is prepared to admit them though...or mayb i am the only weirdo out there - but that would explain a lot of things! *LoL*
I bring this topic up, cos i went to a nail salon to get a "reshape" and "french manicure" done on Australia day, but to be honest, she ended up doing what i use to do for myself and i was disappointed cos she didnt really reshape my nails. I ended up getting something i could have done on my own. It started chipping over the weekend, so i took the polish off and did my own nails again. There is something gratifyingly soothing in buffing my own nails...and naturally girly about it. It reminded me of my odd ways, and the fact that i use to annoy my brother so much because he hated the smell of enamel and more so of the nail polish remover! hahaha
He use to try to ignore the smell, because he knew that it was my way of "dealing" with my studies and stress. I think he was relieved when i started going to Officeworks to pick up stationary. I mean he dealt with the liquid paper/white out pretty well, better than the polish and remover! And paper just smells fresh if there is a fragrance at all. (Unless you deliberately buy perfumed paper!)
So, how do you deal with it???
Thursday, January 29, 2004
Eyes Big!
In chinese, the term that your "eyes are big" doesnt necessarily mean that u have large beautiful eyes.
I mean it could mean that, but its also a saying, maybe a proverb...im not sure.
In chiew chow, ino it to mean that u are some what greedy. Always wanting more and that u are never satisfied with what u have.
Sometimes it can be a positive thing tho, like u see what other ppl have experienced - like when they have travelled and u want to experience it too. But u work hard so that u can go and travel like other's have. Having "eyes big" can also mean that u are determined to get what u want, u're motivated to succeed! That u are highly observant and nothing can pass u without u noticing.
Its a negative attribute when u become fickle and u chop and change between decisions without a second thought on what the consequences might be. Its a wretched situation to be in if ur the type of person who regrets their actions. Especially when ur chasing after money...what i mean by that, is that ur decisions are made soley based on money, or 'how much you will get out of it?' - that type of thing.
I've done somethings due to the "eyes being too big". But i dont regret them. I usually get overwhelmed by what lies ahead of me and thats when i want to experience more (part greediness, part learning curve). I'm getting that itchy feeling of travelling. My best friend sent a postcard from London right before she left to go to Vienna. Although the weather has been morbid in London and she is freezing her butt off going from one place to the next...she is having a blast!
I'm happy for her, but i want my blast too.
So, i shall be stringent with my money and save save save! So that i can go on my European Holiday! Then i can go on my Asian Holiday - after this whole bird flu finishes. Then...i can go everywhere else i have missed out on! hahahaha...my eyes are getting sore from my lids being stretched out way too far!
=P
I mean it could mean that, but its also a saying, maybe a proverb...im not sure.
In chiew chow, ino it to mean that u are some what greedy. Always wanting more and that u are never satisfied with what u have.
Sometimes it can be a positive thing tho, like u see what other ppl have experienced - like when they have travelled and u want to experience it too. But u work hard so that u can go and travel like other's have. Having "eyes big" can also mean that u are determined to get what u want, u're motivated to succeed! That u are highly observant and nothing can pass u without u noticing.
Its a negative attribute when u become fickle and u chop and change between decisions without a second thought on what the consequences might be. Its a wretched situation to be in if ur the type of person who regrets their actions. Especially when ur chasing after money...what i mean by that, is that ur decisions are made soley based on money, or 'how much you will get out of it?' - that type of thing.
I've done somethings due to the "eyes being too big". But i dont regret them. I usually get overwhelmed by what lies ahead of me and thats when i want to experience more (part greediness, part learning curve). I'm getting that itchy feeling of travelling. My best friend sent a postcard from London right before she left to go to Vienna. Although the weather has been morbid in London and she is freezing her butt off going from one place to the next...she is having a blast!
I'm happy for her, but i want my blast too.
So, i shall be stringent with my money and save save save! So that i can go on my European Holiday! Then i can go on my Asian Holiday - after this whole bird flu finishes. Then...i can go everywhere else i have missed out on! hahahaha...my eyes are getting sore from my lids being stretched out way too far!
=P
Saturday, January 24, 2004
Naked! Exposed! Whatever!
Have u ever watched "Never Been Kissed", the Drew Barrymore movie?
I feel like her character, Josie Geller in the scene at the end of the movie where she stands on the pitch in a baseball field waiting for the guy of her dreams to come and give her her first real kiss. In this scene...there are all these camera ppl, and journalists, reporters, and supporters on the sides and in the stalls...they are all there waiting in anticipation for her "dream guy" to come...there is a timer just clocking down.
...down.
...down.
Closer and closer to 0.
And there was one point in which everyone let out a sigh of disappointment because they were certain that he wasnt going to show...but in true hollywood style, of course "dream guy" turns up and everyone is celebrating as the two kiss!
Well, my story isnt a good fairytale ending...even though i was hoping.
Just like Josie, i wrote my article about the guy i met...and not that i expected him to read it (unlike the movie)...but i let everyone know how i felt and what had happened...and apparently everyone has been talking about it all week!
So, here i was...on the pitch waiting for his call...everyone a buzz waiting for him to call me, ppl there waiting for the goss, ppl there supporting me...after Day 3 of the Waiting game...he was a no show...and the clock is ticking...
Day 4, supporters are asking me..."Did he call you?"...my reply..."nope"... And so they turned around and ask if i would call him...? I didnt want to cos the ball was in his court! So, i did the supposed next best thing to check if he was interested...i sms'd him.
Since it was Chinese New Year's Eve...i thought i would sms a message wishing him a happy new year...*gasp* With a help of a friend (Thank U, uno who u are!), i sent a message that got a reply...it was quite bland...but at least he replied??? I sent another message back and then he replied to that one too. His msg indicated that he was at a concert and that it was "bloody awesome"! I sent another reply back, and that was the end of that.
I thought that by sending the sms, i would indicate to him that i was interested and i hoped that he would call after it...not right away, cos i knew he was busy...but the day after or the day after that...but that was Wednesday...and now its Saturday, so i dont know what the hell is going on?!
I feel like a complete failure...and ino im currently the "hot goss" amongst friends and acquaintances...which makes it worse...i didnt realise how many ppl either read my blog...or how many ppl loved to gossip! >_<
I feel crap...and although another friend told me that it was him that loses out in this situation...i still feel bad! (But Thank U to u too, all ur compliments made me smile...uno who u are!) I think i feel especially like a failure, cos to me...it only made it half way...many have said to me that I succeeded...cos he asked for my number and he was the one who gave me a kiss good bye...but i derno.
I've suprised some, cos they all think that im "confident" and "collected"...i guess they dont realise that a "confident" & "collected" person on the outside can still be highly insecure on the inside. I dont think im pretty...and although friends tell me that im attractive...it feels like they are just saying that to make me feel better or just cos they are my friends...
So, in some sense, i wanted some validation from a stranger! Which sounds a bit warped, but it makes sense to me. Cos strangers are not obliged to talking to u...and a guy doesnt usually talk to a girl that he doesnt find attractive! And he doesnt usually ask a girl for her number if he isnt impressed with her personality and would like to continue the conversation at a later stage! And he wouldnt kiss her goodbye if he didnt want to show her that he is interested...
Well, that was what i thought...but im resolved...i should have been harsh and kept to the "3 Day Grace period!" So, if he didnt call by then, i would give him the boot. But all my friends and collegues said to give him a week...but cos i gave him 5 days...it screwed me over! Not that he "didnt call" affected me so much...but i screwed myself emotionally with self doubt...and now i feel more crap than i have ever felt for a long time now!
I feel like i have exposed myself...and i have shown everyone my weaknesses...
I feel like everyone is snickering behind me, pointing and laughing cos i put myself out there and got rejected!
I feel like what i use to believe in is all so wrong...all those indicators that i use to be able to read in a guy which shows that he likes a girl, they are all false!
So, whats even scarier is the fact that my judgement is twisted or something...*ugh*
I feel like her character, Josie Geller in the scene at the end of the movie where she stands on the pitch in a baseball field waiting for the guy of her dreams to come and give her her first real kiss. In this scene...there are all these camera ppl, and journalists, reporters, and supporters on the sides and in the stalls...they are all there waiting in anticipation for her "dream guy" to come...there is a timer just clocking down.
...down.
...down.
Closer and closer to 0.
And there was one point in which everyone let out a sigh of disappointment because they were certain that he wasnt going to show...but in true hollywood style, of course "dream guy" turns up and everyone is celebrating as the two kiss!
Well, my story isnt a good fairytale ending...even though i was hoping.
Just like Josie, i wrote my article about the guy i met...and not that i expected him to read it (unlike the movie)...but i let everyone know how i felt and what had happened...and apparently everyone has been talking about it all week!
So, here i was...on the pitch waiting for his call...everyone a buzz waiting for him to call me, ppl there waiting for the goss, ppl there supporting me...after Day 3 of the Waiting game...he was a no show...and the clock is ticking...
Day 4, supporters are asking me..."Did he call you?"...my reply..."nope"... And so they turned around and ask if i would call him...? I didnt want to cos the ball was in his court! So, i did the supposed next best thing to check if he was interested...i sms'd him.
Since it was Chinese New Year's Eve...i thought i would sms a message wishing him a happy new year...*gasp* With a help of a friend (Thank U, uno who u are!), i sent a message that got a reply...it was quite bland...but at least he replied??? I sent another message back and then he replied to that one too. His msg indicated that he was at a concert and that it was "bloody awesome"! I sent another reply back, and that was the end of that.
I thought that by sending the sms, i would indicate to him that i was interested and i hoped that he would call after it...not right away, cos i knew he was busy...but the day after or the day after that...but that was Wednesday...and now its Saturday, so i dont know what the hell is going on?!
I feel like a complete failure...and ino im currently the "hot goss" amongst friends and acquaintances...which makes it worse...i didnt realise how many ppl either read my blog...or how many ppl loved to gossip! >_<
I feel crap...and although another friend told me that it was him that loses out in this situation...i still feel bad! (But Thank U to u too, all ur compliments made me smile...uno who u are!) I think i feel especially like a failure, cos to me...it only made it half way...many have said to me that I succeeded...cos he asked for my number and he was the one who gave me a kiss good bye...but i derno.
I've suprised some, cos they all think that im "confident" and "collected"...i guess they dont realise that a "confident" & "collected" person on the outside can still be highly insecure on the inside. I dont think im pretty...and although friends tell me that im attractive...it feels like they are just saying that to make me feel better or just cos they are my friends...
So, in some sense, i wanted some validation from a stranger! Which sounds a bit warped, but it makes sense to me. Cos strangers are not obliged to talking to u...and a guy doesnt usually talk to a girl that he doesnt find attractive! And he doesnt usually ask a girl for her number if he isnt impressed with her personality and would like to continue the conversation at a later stage! And he wouldnt kiss her goodbye if he didnt want to show her that he is interested...
Well, that was what i thought...but im resolved...i should have been harsh and kept to the "3 Day Grace period!" So, if he didnt call by then, i would give him the boot. But all my friends and collegues said to give him a week...but cos i gave him 5 days...it screwed me over! Not that he "didnt call" affected me so much...but i screwed myself emotionally with self doubt...and now i feel more crap than i have ever felt for a long time now!
I feel like i have exposed myself...and i have shown everyone my weaknesses...
I feel like everyone is snickering behind me, pointing and laughing cos i put myself out there and got rejected!
I feel like what i use to believe in is all so wrong...all those indicators that i use to be able to read in a guy which shows that he likes a girl, they are all false!
So, whats even scarier is the fact that my judgement is twisted or something...*ugh*
Friday, January 23, 2004
Grr...Optus!
I had a go at Optus...
Its fun being the Network Administrator...i got to crack my whip!
ahahahahaha
anyways...long weekend...fun fun fun!
Its fun being the Network Administrator...i got to crack my whip!
ahahahahaha
anyways...long weekend...fun fun fun!
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
The Last Samurai
One of the most erotic scenes i have ever scene:
When Taka asks Algren if he will honour her late husband by wearing his armour into battle and he accepts.
What makes this scene erotic is when Taka actually dresses Algren - not undressing him!
It is when she puts all the layers on him...and you can just feel the intimacy between the two.
...its breath taking...
When Taka asks Algren if he will honour her late husband by wearing his armour into battle and he accepts.
What makes this scene erotic is when Taka actually dresses Algren - not undressing him!
It is when she puts all the layers on him...and you can just feel the intimacy between the two.
...its breath taking...
Year of the Monkey
I was born in 1981 so basically that makes me a Rooster. Altho, i do prefer to call myself a Chicken...cos im female!
=P
*LoL*
This is a forecast of what a Chick's 2004 should be.
Career:
For 2004, the Chick is blessed with auspicious Career luck! Fortune, wealth and happiness is for the taking, so make full use of this situation to gain the best profit. And watch out for career advancement as well! This is the Career year for you.
Wealth:
Improve your credibility, reputation and public relations skills and you will be able to reach tremendous gains in Wealth! Try to retain to this accumulated wealth by not generating unnecessary expenses for entertainment.
Love:
Married Chicks will have a good relationship with his or her partner. Ensure it stays that way by not getting too close to members of the opposite sex: your partner will definitely not like that. The attached Chick might just tie the know come 2004 due to such auspicious stars for you!
Health:
Health might be on the decline for the Chick. With the career boost, the Chick might just push Health matters to the side. Don't! Avoid oily fast food, too much alcohol and do look out for road hazards while driving. You need the best health for the best prosperity!
If you want to find out what 2004 has installed for you, go to Chinese Astrology.
=P
*LoL*
This is a forecast of what a Chick's 2004 should be.
Career:
For 2004, the Chick is blessed with auspicious Career luck! Fortune, wealth and happiness is for the taking, so make full use of this situation to gain the best profit. And watch out for career advancement as well! This is the Career year for you.
Wealth:
Improve your credibility, reputation and public relations skills and you will be able to reach tremendous gains in Wealth! Try to retain to this accumulated wealth by not generating unnecessary expenses for entertainment.
Love:
Married Chicks will have a good relationship with his or her partner. Ensure it stays that way by not getting too close to members of the opposite sex: your partner will definitely not like that. The attached Chick might just tie the know come 2004 due to such auspicious stars for you!
Health:
Health might be on the decline for the Chick. With the career boost, the Chick might just push Health matters to the side. Don't! Avoid oily fast food, too much alcohol and do look out for road hazards while driving. You need the best health for the best prosperity!
If you want to find out what 2004 has installed for you, go to Chinese Astrology.
