Expressionism...

I woke up...suddenly feeling inspired...in a feverish delight i quickly washed my face, had some breakfast and grabbed my big black sketch book and my pencil case filled with different lead pencils...

My book is suppose to be a compendium of my creativity, but its still empty. I went on an escapade to the Australian Museum last year and i had a hit of inspiration then...so i drew a couple of statues and artifacts. But of late...the only other objects i have drawn was a tissue box, a lamp i conjured up in the back of my head one nite...a powerade bottle my brother left on the table one day and thats about it.

So, while i felt inspired i thought "what do i draw?"...*blank*...*blink blink*...*blank*...

I looked at my hands and so i decided to draw my left hand.

It took me about 20 minutes to draw my hand...and funnily enough, my hand looked sad, aged, and stressed.

I like artworks done by expressionists...its evocative and it usually sends a shiver down my spine...please dont think that im cultured or something...i just studied art in high school for my school certificate. And at the time it was my world, it was the only thing that challenged me...i was a geek - still am...so conventional subjects really didnt do much for me.

I was in the top 10 for science, in the top 10 for maths, top 5 for english, top 5 for history, you get the drift...of where i was comparatively to my grade. Doing art enabled me to be creative, it was an outlet, it was my love...

I nurtured my work...i pulled all-nighters for a fortnite each term to complete projects and assignments before the deadline...i made a 3D mask out of 1 single A4 sheet of paper...moulded plasticine into a full-sized mask that could be worn (i still have it)...i painted 4 self-portraits that were displayed in the school library...my sketchbooks were filled with drawings...i always got top marks for my essays, the pamphlet that i made on Jackson Pollock got 25/25 marks. I spent soo much money because i did it all in colour and then i colour photocopied it so that it would be all glossy...hehehe...yes this was prior to me using the computer for anything but games!

I had so many ideas as a kid...now im drawing a blank canvas...the best i could do while being "inspired" was my hand...i think i need a muse...