Morally incorrect?

I often have "Tunnel-vision" switched on at the gym to avoid eye contact, so that i can focus on running for 20 minutes at the speed of between 10.5-12.5 kph. I also have a tendency to either close my eyes or stare at the tv in front of me with Channel V set on the screen.

But there is this guy at the gym.

Decent looking, a familiar face, taller than i am.

I noticed him as he probably noticed me in the same way. We both go to the gym frequently on weeknights and i sometimes see him on the weekends too.

We have never spoken to eachother, never even acknowledged eachother with a nod or smile, as u would do at the gym.

Now, after Wednesday nite I have been flirting with the idea of "getting to know him better".

*wink wink*

What is actually stopping me from doing anything though, is not the simple fact that i have no idea on how to pick up a guy at the gym...Like what would be the second thing to say after "Hi!" that wouldnt make me sound like a complete idiot???

No, the thing that is stopping me is a simple fact.

I'm bored.

Now, in my mind...i consciously recognise this.

I only started to fancy the idea of crushing on him as i was ritualistically doing my lower abs on the Roman Chair. He was right in front of me doing bicep curls. Honestly, it could have been any half decent guy there, at that time, in front of me doing whatever boys do at the gym. So, it could have been anyone.

Which is why im not going to do anything.

It feels wrong knowing that ur not really interested in a relationship with a person, and yet pursuing it. I think i would feel really sick if i found out that someone was only interested in me because they were "bored" at the time.

I told M this, and she doesnt seem to think there is anything wrong with it "just because ur bored". She gave Ella Fitzgerald's song "Let's Fall in Love" - as an example as to why i should. There is this line:

" Now is the time for it, while we are young
Let's fall in love "

She thinks that "that" is excuse enough. I just feel wrong in doing so, knowing that im just interested in having "fun" because im "bored". Its selfish. It could be hurtful. And im just not that crazy to do anything out of the ordinary as yet, to break my moral ground.

Get of your high horse petals!