This blog of mine...

I just dont get how he doesnt get it!

Well, i do get how he doesnt.

And it frustrates me!

I mentioned that i kept an online journal. He asked if he could read it? I dont want him to view my inner most thoughts about him that reflects poorly on me...the times in which i was on an emotional rollercoaster, going up and down in waves!

I really dont want his opinion of me to change.

I dont want him to read all this and find that he is going out with a psychotic lunatic.

But he will be reading it.

He will be reading this post.

We had a long conversation about it last nite...it continued this morning.

I understand where he is coming from in terms of:

"If it is published for the public to read, as it is on the internet...then why can't i read it?"

You're right in that sense...you could have found the link through a friend of a friend...and i would never have known.

And i also agree, that if u want a peek into my "dramas" this is the perfect way to find out who i am...i have a tendency to write how i feel when i feel them.

I also have a tendency to say the things i publish to my friends anyways...M usually knows before i write it on a post.

I dont have a problem with strangers reading my blog...because i dont care for their opinion...and i most likely, will never meet them in person...

My friends already know how i am, so what i write does not affect what they think of me - they know that im melodramatic.

What i do care about is what you will think of me after you read this.

I care about what you will think after reading about how i felt when we first dated. I care about how you will react to my 101 different insecurities...how you will feel reading about my ex or my crushes...how you will feel reading about anything that is slightly off centre.

Please remember what you promised me about reading into this part of my life.