Sleeping Beauty and her Illicit Affair...

For some reason in the past 3 weeks, I have slept for about 12 hours from Saturday night and waking at 12 noon on Sunday.

I dont know what has gotten into me...albeit, i did have the flu during the long weekend...but the weekend earlier and the weekend that just past...im not sure how to explain it. I am naturally an early riser. I havent been sleeping in since the days of Uni and clubbing, which is a good 3-4 years ago. I havent slept over 8 hours for about a year.

I wonder what is going on with my mind and body???

It seems to be spazzing out on me.

Btw, I have found the real culprit for my wrinkle too! I was brushing my teeth on Saturday morning and realised that when get rid of the toothpaste in my mouth, my lips/mouth does a funny face and its this funny face that i pull which is the reason why i have that wrinkle.

And since wrinkles come from repetitive actions causing the elasticity to diminish under the skin...my wrinkle is also from the face pulling when i am putting lipbalm/lipstick on and putting cream on my face.

I cant help the face pulling. 25 years worth of doing these innocent tweaks to the face is very hard to undo. So, i have to just live with it...and try my best to be "graceful".

The "Illicit Affair" mentioned in the title, isnt quite illicit. I just like over-dramatising things for the sake of it.

My Will isnt gay. Although, i like to pretend he is. He is in fact a guy i had dated 4 years back. We got along fine then, but i didnt love him. And so i broke it off. We have always shared mutual interests in art, film, food, culture, books, music and travel.

It would be a dream come true for me if he was in fact gay. I mean, then he could be my date to things when i didnt have one. And it would be great for him if i was a lesbian. Sadly, we prefer the opposite of our sexes. And from previous experience, we know that we dont work as anything other than really good friends.

Friday night, i went and watched Bell Shakespeare's "Romeo and Juliet" with My Will. Out of curiosity over dinner at Young Alfred, i asked whether his friends knew about us "hanging out" together, like we do? He said no - that it was a secret.

I'm not really surprised that it has been kept a secret. But at the same time, i wonder at how juvenile some guys can be? It wasnt an uber bad break up...it wasnt like we broke up because one of us had cheated. It was done as amicably as possible once it was realised that things werent working out. And he himself is over it...so, why would his friends be uncool about the fact that we hang out as plutonic friends? Why do guys care so much whether a mate was hanging with his ex (of yonks ago) or not? And is it really about his mates or is it really about his own fears - if his mates found out?

I just ignored the whole "oooh...were seeing eachother in secret" because my friends know that im hanging out with him. And my friends are cool with it, because its my life and my choices. Were not doing anything wrong. Were company for eachother to do the things that no one else but us enjoy doing. He is the friend i ask if i want to go and watch a foreign film. I'm the friend he asks to join him if there is an exhibition he knows no one else will want to go to. There is a mutual understanding and appreciation for all things cultural and visual/mentally stimulating.

It is a shame that it didnt work out previously, but i love the fact that we can be friends. And if our relationship - this hanging out with one another - must be kept a secret, then so it shall be.

Speaking of Illicit Affairs...I watched Season 3 of Sex and the City again. I know, i know...its an addiction now! But what i wanted to point out is that i cant sit and stomach the way Carrie cheats on Aidan Shaw with Mr Big (who is married at the time).

I frown on any form of cheating in relationships. I dont believe in lying. I dont believe in grass-cutting. I dont believe in affairs with married or attached men. It is wrong. WRONG! And I really hate Carrie for cheating on Aidan. Aidan was a lovely, good looking, talented, tender loving man. Honest and devoted...he was the rock for her to hold on to...their relationship was really good and then she f@#$ed it up by sleeping with Mr Big. Mr Big is married with Natasha at this point in time. Even though he says its not working...they shouldnt have had the affair. If it wasnt working, he should have just divorced Natasha. Not have the affair and then divorce. Carrie, being attached to Aidan and telling him that she loves him, goes and bonks Mr Big anyway...even though she knows it is wrong.

I cant tolerate people who lack will power. I know some are not as strong as I am. And I am not declaring that i have the strongest power of will either, I am human after all. But something like cheating with a married man, while you are attached to a loving boyfriend that you declare that you love - its a BIG no-no in my books! Its a cardinal sin that i dont believe that anyone should commit to the person they love, if they truly love them...

The only time where I would forgive a person for doing "the wrong" is when they didnt know that they were doing it. Specifically, i mean if a guy has lied to a girl or when asked if he was single, led the girl to believe that he was actually available when he was attached. Then i wouldnt blame the girl for not knowing the wiser. He lied to her. He lied to his current girlfriend/wife. But if you find that you have been misled, get out as quick as you can. Dont think that a cheater will change his ways for you. Salvage yourself and your dignity from that disaster. We all have standards, dont let your standards be so low.

* Vice versa too, if a girl had lied to a guy about her status...then the guy isnt in the wrong for being misled by the girl.

Thats my thoughts on the subject.

In future, i might just skip Season 3...i cant keep cringing each time i watch it. The face pulling will give me more wrinkles!

=P