baby girl...

Mum sometimes calls me that...still today...its funny, cos im turning 25 soon...but there will be moments she will say something and end it with "baby girl"...

I think she is becoming reminiscent of when i was younger...my nieces, surely, must remind her of me when i was their age. The only difference between them and me at that age is the fact that i was more stable? Umm...i wasn't a hyperactive child, is what im trying to say. I sat still...i'd cling on to my mother's back and stay there pretty much without moving, while she was working at the sewing machine.

I blame it on the fact that i was a sickly child when i was growing up. Which probably would explain why i didnt talk all that much either when i was younger.

This morning, after breakfast, i ran to put my heels on and all you could hear from my room to the bathroom & then to the living room was: "gop, gop, gop".

She was lying on the lounge in the living room watching some morning show. She looked at me in the dress she made and then at the shoes and said: "my baby girl wearing heels going 'gop, gop, gop'..."

She was actually making a comparison between my niece and me wearing heels, clopping away on the tiled floor. More over, in her mind she was probably comparing my niece and me - at my niece's age...

When i was younger, i use to steal my mother's heels from the cupboard and prance around the house. We have ceiling to floor mirrors in the house and back then, the floor was carpeted...so walking around in stilettos as a four year old, was a pretty safe deal.

I loved pretending to be as beautiful as my mother, wearing her shoes.

Although, i didnt make any sounds walking in her shoes, since we had carpet back then...but with the amount of clicking i do now in my heels...its more than made up for the past!

I wondered as i was riding the train to work this morning...if she feels reminiscent of me just wearing heels, how would she feel if i told her i was going to get married? Would she start crying? Thinking that she would lose her only daughter? Good grief...what if i ran away and eloped...then came home and said: "Hi Mum, guess what?...I got married on the weekend!!!"

You know what, i know what she'd say...

She would say:

"WTF?!" (Although, WTF isnt the exact words she would use, she isnt that rude...but the sentiments and thoughts would be to that effect!)

Then she would continue with:

"You are not my daughter...You are not my child...How could you do this to me??? How could you do this to your family??? Why didnt you tell me??? I dont have a daughter!!! You are not a part of this family!!!...etc"

Not like i wouldnt tell her if i was getting married. She'd be the first person i'd tell, well, with the exception of saying yes to the guy who proposes. *LoL*

I think its tough for mothers who only have sons. They really should have a daughter to connect with on the female plane of thoughts.

I know my mother is happy to have had me so she has someone to talk to. My brothers suck at conversations!

=P

And you know what...i dont really mind her calling me "baby girl"...