Streamline.

I can't imagine how some people can live complicated lives filled with lies.

I think i would die from the weight of it all on my shoulders. And we all know how i feel about weight on my shoulders...absolutely hate it...with a vengeance.

And you know, if you ask your bf/ex to give you time to think about things...to you know, straighten things out in your head about the two of you...but then you decide that you want to dump him...and then after a few months, when he is finally moving along...why the hell would you harass the poor guy and ask him to take you back?!?!?!?

I mean, how rude is that? My friend has finally gotten his head sorted out. But then lately his ex has asked him to take her back. Yes, he probably was wishing that this would happen some time when they first broke up...but now he learnt to accept that it wasnt going to happen. Yet, it does, and the guy is all screwed up again.

I told him to push back. And by that i mean, he should tell her to give him time to think about it. He gave it to her when she asked for it initially...if she really wants him back, then she can wait just like he did for her. Its only fair. And if she doesnt, well then we know where her heart really is - and thats not with him.

He wrote back after i offered that little bit of advice, telling me that i was "upfront". "Upfront" sounds very controversial to me, like im looking for a fight. I prefer the simpler, more diplomatic words like honest and frank.

He told me that i was a good friend to tell him like it is. And im thinking, umm...isnt that what any friend would say?

And then im thinking, maybe i gave such advice simply because i want to keep everything simple now.

I dont want things messy. I dont want to confuse anyone. So, although i try not to be blunt, i still try to be as honest as possible without hurting people's feeling. But i have noticed that i still have too many words in my sentences...i should start culling all the words i put in it and try to express things as precisely and succinct as possible.

I think im going to start an overhaul on my life.

Starting with my calendar. While i was bored during Winter...i am so busy now in Spring and the coming Summer. I sort of prefer minimising my weekend to only one night out. That is either a Friday night or a Saturday night or a Sunday night. I cant manage 2 late nights. My body needs a bloody week to catch up and then it gets hit again the following weekend! Sunday for recovery is no longer enough.

I am not comparing my life to anyone else...im just saying that i cant deal with mine so im making the changes i need to make. Mean while, i dont know how L&E manage their lives. They have late nights during the week as well as the weekend and they are book solid until next year.

Next i need to get my money back in order. Once the house is settled, i can then pay off the bills i need to and then work out my new budget. Its currently a nightmare. And since its my money, i dont like the fact that things are not in order.

Then i will work on my sentences and how i express things. I am going to try and explain things in as little sentences i can. Once i get that down pat, i will start reducing the amount of words used in the sentence. And the trick is to not lose the meaning while doing so.

I guess that means my blog posts will be significantly shorter...

I will also try to prevent any repetition in the body of what i am writing. I tend to do that...paraphrase or reiterating something already mentioned.
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Hmm...i think i need to cut out the amount of sugar im having...my blood sugar level is peaking sporadically and i am currently feeling tired at 8:50am, while i was alert only 30 minutes ago. Another thing to streamline i guess...my bloody diet, yet again. Although, my tiredness today could simply be the fact that i went to bed at 10pm and then woke at 3am but couldnt get back to sleep until 4:30am and had to wake up at 5:30am...that explains today...but not the past 3 days where i have been schlepping my carcass around work.

I also need to file all my documents that are just sitting on my desk at work. They are stacked neatly, but in no particular order and its becoming a bad habit to just ditch my paperwork mixing different projects together like that!

Whats become of me???