gripes and more gripes!

I am a person with etiquette...or so i think.

But ino for a fact that i do not intentionally go out to hurt people.
I try not to slander a person's name.
If i say something bad/wrong about a person, im most likely using it as an example to explain myself so that people can better understand me, AND i have done the same bad/wrong thing.

Basically, i try my best not to hurt anyone or speak ill of anyone either.

So, i hope that the same sort of respect is paid back to me when i respect others.

Alas, that is not the case.

In times of tribulation, while im going through my quarter life crisis or something of the same sort, i am faced with people who are sooo disrespectful that it makes me think, "how in the world did u survive this long in this world, with such bad manners and poor respect of others???" This is the type of attitude that gets up my ASS!

Im at the gym and some girls comment on the fact that i was doing a double-back to back session of the cardio classes.
(1) Is it any of their business what my session at the gym is?
(2) I have been going to the gym for over 2.5 years, so generally, to stay fit i would have to do heaps of cardio work to make my sessions effective.
(3) Once again is it any of their business???

I dont know why i let it get to me, but i guess its because in my mind i think that im a decent human being - so why me? I havent done anything wrong to them personally. One of the girls is a friend of my friend. The other is from my primary school, and we were friends until we lost touch when we started high school. Another is my Ex's friend's sister - but she seemed to have problems with me without knowing me from wayyy back. I think she had issues because she thought i was someone, and her friend who knew me said to her: "Nah i dont think she is that person." The person we mutually knew and said that, would know that im not a vindictive bitch who is out to get people! (And yes, i overheard their conversation - its hard not to on the train and when they are looking right at u!)

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That same Ex's friend (who's sister is a mean mean person, mentioned above)...well he keeps giving me dirtees!(bad looks every time he sees me) YES i broke up with his close buddy! YES i hurt his buddy to bits! BUT, if his buddy can get over it and be my friend, then so can he(get over it)!

My question to all the people out there who have watched a friend in a relationship, fall to shards of glass because their significant other had said good bye their friend - Don't u think that there was something really wrong in the relationship for it to end? And therefore, isnt it better for your friend to have gotten out of that relationship ASAP, and begin a healing process so that they can move on in life? To get on the better path in finding their appropriate partner???

I ended my relationship with my Ex, because it no longer felt right, and i knew that i was borderline insane. It wasnt right to keep him in a relationship and watch me fall apart. I cant contribute anything worthwhile to the relationship if i wasnt all together! It would be unfair and cruel to stay with someone just because he still loved me, and yet i was unsure about how i felt. It would be wrong of me to stay there in fear of loneliness. It would hurt him more if we stayed together, when i know we hold different beliefs on certain family issues. For instance, later on marrying him and yet enforce that i didnt want to ever have kids and i knew that he did want a few children!

I think they are valid reasons. The first reason alone should be sufficient on most accounts. And ino that i was the one who broke it up, but i didnt end the relationship because i had had an affair, or that i wanted to be with someone else. So, i dont think i should be seen as a villain. If things dont work, they just dont work, and i did try for over 10 months. It just didnt work.

My second boyfriend...his friends also still give me dirtees too, whenever i catch the same train home! The weird factor is that this couple have been together and then apart and together again. So common sense says that they, of all people, would understand break ups! =(

But they too are apparently ignorant and i didnt even break up with my second boyfriend. He broke up with me. He and i are still friends and i go out with his sister and his friends(another group of people who know that we have been together but dont care about it).

I dont understand these looks, and i dont understand why i am getting them.

I always thought that my break ups were the "better" forms of break ups. It was never in a huge arguement, no arguements at all really. There was no one extremely upset...sad yes, but not "mad/im going to hurt someone/crazy shotting spree/im going to kill that bitch" sort of bad break up!

All of them was through verbal communication that it wasnt working...Tears, yes. Loud voices, no. Obscene language, never. A hug, depends on

I dont understand how people can judge me without knowing me.
I dont know how they can judge the relationship without being part of it.
I dont know why people are so mean, even when they know that it was not a bad break up.
I understand loyalty, but that doesnt mean that u have to be rude to a person that u have spoken to on a level of more than an acquaintance.

I wonder what my Ex-es would think if they had known or know about this???

One friend asked me to just give them dirtees back. I said that i wouldnt want to sink to their level. To me it is childish and considering that these people are about 22-25 years old. *sigh* I thought this kind of high school behaviour was left back in high school...i guess it apparently is not!
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I sometimes just feel like crying over the looks i get.

Its really bad, as the last time i felt this crap due to a "look" was back in primary school. So here i am, a 22 year old woman who gets reduced to a 7 year old girl...*ugh*...