Stressed...

I get knots in my traps when I stress out...

My left side was in pain a week ago...and i got over it and i thought everything was fine again...and I knew it was because I was doing weights the other day and that was the cause of my pain.

And then this week, the right side started hurting...I know it wasn't the resistance training, because I was avoiding it to ensure that I wouldn't hurt the left side again...so, it left me to wonder what was the problem?

It started to feel better, so much that I was thinking of heading back into the gym tonight, but I woke up today and it feels all knotted up again. It might be the way I sleep, but I have slept on my side for all my life, I don't understand why it would hurt me now.

I'm guessing that its the stress from work and I'm probably actually sleeping with my neck tensed up. How weird is that?

I've been moving along with my projects at my own beat. I was pretty lucky to have projects that were being resourced by the same people over and over again and it was always a small team. But I recently got thrown into the deep end. My manager, I'm assuming is trying to push me further so that he can dump the bigger projects on me...

Which is fair enough...it has been 6 months, perhaps he thinks I should be meeting other people in the company, where as I have only been dealing with people in my area for the while.

I'm being forced to take more charge and making calls with limited information.

Since its a decommission of a platform, a lot of people think its a ripping out and binning hardware sort of activity. But unfortunately, its never that simple. Yes, new platform is in and working A-Ok, and the old platform has no traffic...but the systems and applications that might "expect" or "anticipate" traffic from the old platform...thats where the problems are...things need to be shut off in a particular sequence, as the expected communication between applications may cause problems in a production environment...even if its from an old platform with no traffic.

Why is it soo hard for some people who are in fact technically minded to understand that there are potential risks?!?!?! Its my job to manage and mitigate the risks...it is their job to identify the "technical" risks because they are the technical people!!!

Yes...I am stressed...