Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Why do i feel...

...as though I have lost something, but it was never mine to begin with???

Is it more devasting to feel such a loss, than actually sustaining a true loss of something that is yours?

I guess its warranted if it belonged to you, that you would feel immense sadness when you lose it.

But its not mine. And i do feel sad. But i really shouldn't.

Am i selfish for feeling this way?

I think i'm feeling pangs of jealousy...of it being acquired by someone else...but i need to remind myself...it wasn't yours, you have no claim, you shouldn't even feel sad.

I'm pathetic sometimes.

About the wedding...its over! I have a broken toenail from the Friday night before the wedding. There was torrential rain before and during the wedding ceremony. It was a crying fest. And more about it later.

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