The day you went away...

You were the sunshine in my life when i was most lonely...You came to me out of nowhere and offered me comfort when my heart was aching. It was at times like these, that you took my hand and showed me what beauty the world had to offer. We experienced so many things that I would only wish i could share it with someone...and that rightful someone was of course you. I had wonderful moments with you, like at the Opera sitting in the balcony - you looked so handsome...i would have sworn that it was not your type of thing, but you surprised me and proved me wrong. You showed me that i should never judge a book by its cover and how it was worth every bit to delve inside the book.

Our relationship was endearing and you fulfilled my every wish...that void i had gapping in my heart was no longer there.

But then one day, so suddenly things had changed. I befriended someone new and that day, that was the day you went away. You just knew that it was time to leave...how wise you are...you let me have my space. I was a terrible person because I neglected you. We lost touch and i never saw or heard from you again. I was utterly fascinated by the new him because he offered me something you couldnt. Not that i was ever disatisfied with your company, you know how much i enjoyed our moments, our conversations and your funny jokes! Its just...he could hold me in a way that you would never be able to.

Its funny how you knew when to re-enter into my life...when he left, i grieved and that was like a queue for you to come back to me. You forgave me for abandoning you...because you understood me...you knew me so well. So much that you realised you had to give me my space at that time to explore. But now, now was the right moment for you to shine your light in my world again. I sensed that day you reappeared...because i could feel you. I turned and i saw you, i smelt the fragrance of your cologne, i heard that meaningful tone in your voice - that tone that made me feel loved...loved by you...

This cycle happens all the time...we go in and out of being together! why cant we just be? Why must we be torn apart? Why cant we be sitting in the balcony listening to the Opera, side by side? Why must your scent fade away? Why is it that you only come to me when my heart is broken? Why cant you stay after you have made my heart stronger and prevent it from breaking? Why is it always that im left to worry about the next day you will go away?

Is it because you cant hold me in the same way that they have? I dont care for that - dont say that i do! I know that we will never be, but i just wished that we could...You come and go so often now...its beginning to feel less intimate between us, so much so that all i want to do is cry...because i know that it will never work out between us and that it will have to stay this way. You will only come to me when my heart is torn to pieces. You will glue my heart back together and then when your done, you will leave me - again.